My 2024 Graduate Project

Researching Misinformation and Outright Lies About Transgender Athletes Spread by the Media, Anti-Trans Activists and Conservative Politicians

A Multimedia Graduate Project by Dawn Ennis ‘24

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INTRODUCTION TO THIS PROJECT

I feel it is important to begin with an explanation of basic concepts and figures of speech that will be helpful in better understanding the aim and conclusion of my research.

The word “transgender” is a term that was coined in the 1960s by John F. Oliven, a person who is not transgender, and it stems from the Latin prefix “trans,” loosely translated to mean “on the other side,” “across,” “opposite” or “beyond.” A person who is not transgender is called “cisgender.” “Cisgender” is a term that was coined in 1994 by biologist Dana Leland Defosse, a person who is cisgender, and it also stems from the Latin prefix, “cis,” which is loosely translated to mean “on this side” or “same as.”

“Cis” is not a slur. Transgender women are women. Transgender men are men.

It is important to note that those last three sentences are considered controversial. Those statements are not only disputed but flatly denied by many of the people who oppose transgender rights, the inclusion of transgender athletes in girls’ and women’s sports, and the availability of gender-affirming care. All of these have come under attack in more than two dozen states in the U.S. and in countries around the world. These legislative and societal efforts at oppression are commonly called “transphobia,” which is not to be confused with fear of transgender people, but bullying, hatred, discrimination and all too often violence that hurts or even kills trans people.

I will touch upon both trans rights and gender-affirming care in this paper, but the primary focus of my Graduate Project is on transgender athletes.

            My research examines the misinformation and outright lies told about trans athletes by members of the news media — particularly those who appeal to politically conservative readers, viewers and listeners — by activists who oppose equality for trans people and claim they are only seeking to “protect” girls and women, and by religious conservatives and right wing politicians.

The transphobic fearmongering by those representing communities of faith and those in elected office is consistently perpetuated in the interest of gaining more followers, more funds and primarily more votes for political candidates who are aligned with conservative values, such as outlawing reproductive rights and marriage equality, eliminating diversity, equity and inclusion efforts as well as other issues appealing to mostly white conservative Christians who support Republican political candidates.

That said, opposition to allowing trans girls and trans women to compete with cis girls and women has grown to include some Jewish, Muslim and other faith communities, as well as liberals and Democrats and even gays and lesbians who find themselves allied on this single issue with groups with whom they do not have any other causes or beliefs in common.

            There is also division among athletes, from the biggest names in sports to the backlot hustlers. While many celebrity athletes who fought to be the best at their sport have spoken in support of inclusion, there are also famous names who have turned activism against trans athletes into lucrative careers as public speakers and social media mavens.

            All this will be explored in the pages to follow.

THREE QUESTIONS ADDRESSED BY MY RESEARCH

  1. How many state lawmakers and sports organizations are responding to an actual problem posed by inclusion of transgender athletes?
  2. Where are politicians who oppose inclusion getting the information about trans athletes that they use to feed their followers and media contacts?  
  3. What does the science say about the fairness of trans inclusion in sports?

1: A Solution in Search of A Problem

As laws targeting LGBTQ+ people have proliferated in so-called “red states,” where Republicans are in control of both the legislature and the executive branch, a clear understanding of how many people will be directly affected is too often absent from policy decisions. Let’s begin with an understanding of the LGBTQ+ population, and how large or small it really is.

As the Associated Press has reported, there is relatively little data on the number of LGBTQ+ Americans, particularly intersex people — those born with physical traits that are different from typical definitions for males and females. That results in lawmakers writing laws without the same kind of reliable information they might have for other demographic groups.

“We can’t study the impact without knowing the population,” Christy Mallory, legal director of the Williams Institute at the UCLA School of Law, told the Associated Press in July 2023. The Williams Institute is a Los Angeles-based think tank that researches sexual orientation and gender identity demographics to help educate the public and lawmakers making public policy decisions.

More than 13 million people ages 13 and older identify as lesbian, gay, bisexual or transgender in the U.S., including about 300,000 young people and 1.3 million adults who specifically identify as transgender, according to the Williams Institute. Nearly half of them live in states without protections from discrimination at work, in school, in housing, public accommodations and applications for credit.

But because these are self-reports, these numbers fluctuate based on who’s doing the surveys. Polling by The Washington Post shows that there are nearly 2 million people nationwide who identify as transgender, representing less than one percent of all adults in the U.S. The poll found that most trans adults are younger than 35 years old, and the vast majority — nearly 8 in 10 — say that transitioning made them more satisfied with their life. Two-thirds of trans adults say they realized they were trans in childhood, and about one-third say they began to understand when they were 10 years old or younger.

The U.S. Census Bureau had no questions about sexual orientation and gender identity until 2021, although in the 2010 census, it did begin collecting data about households led by same-sex couples. The 2021 U.S. Census Household Pulse Survey — delayed one year due to the COVID-19 pandemic — found that 0.6 percent of responding adults described themselves as transgender and 1.7 percent described themselves as neither male, female nor trans. The term for people who fall into this category is nonbinary. Some nonbinary people identify as trans nonbinary, others insist they are not trans because they are not undergoing any medical intervention or because of personal preference to not identify as transgender.

The same U.S. Census survey in 2021 found that 4.4 percent of adult respondents thought of themselves as bisexual, 3.3 percent said they were gay or lesbian, and 88.3 percent said they were straight. Around 2 percent said they were “something else” or that they didn’t know. Intersex people are included in the plus sign in LGBTQ+, and some intersex people also identify as gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender or queer.

From their demographic studies in 2017 and 2022, The Williams Institute noted a slight increase in the number of young people identifying as transgender, but Mallory said additional research will give a more accurate picture.

“This kind of data collection on transgender status is very new for youth,” and some of the increase could be because more states are asking about transgender status during surveys of high school students, Mallory said. “But you know, some of it is probably youth feeling more comfortable identifying as trans.”

So, How Many Are There?

My first research question was to understand how many trans youth are athletes. According to out nonbinary journalist Katie Barnes, writing for ESPN.com, there are approximately 15 million high school students in the United States, and approximately 8 million of them participate in high school sports. A CDC study published in 2019 estimated that 1.8 percent of high school students are transgender, meaning there are roughly 270,000 transgender students in U.S. high schools.

But a report by the Human Rights Campaign found that only 14 percent of transgender boys and 12 percent of transgender girls play sports. Given all of those numbers, it’s statistically possible that there are some 35,000 transgender student-athletes in high school, which would mean 0.44 percent of high school athletes are transgender.

Barnes reported in 2023 that 23 states have passed laws restricting transgender athletes’ ability to participate in school sports in accordance with their gender identity as of August 2023. Because those laws vary from state to state, transgender student-athletes who want to participate in school sports face a patchwork legal landscape from state to state, which can mean they can be banned from taking part in interscholastic competitions when they travel across state lines.

A Closer Look at State Laws

For example, in Connecticut, individual school districts determine the proper placement for each athlete, but they are bound by the Connecticut Interscholastic Athletic Conference and the state’s Constitution to make those decisions based on the gender identity reflected in school records and the students’ daily activities. There are no medical or legal requirements for a student-athlete to compete, but they are required to maintain their identity consistently.

But 1,210 miles away from the state capitol in Hartford, trans female student-athletes are banned from competing with other girls and women in Florida, ever since Governor Ron DeSantis signed “The Fairness In Women’s Sports Act” on June 1, 2021, the first day of Pride Month, as The Daily Beast reported.

Even Connecticut has towns where trans people face oppression. Teenage activist Kai Shappley and her family moved here from Texas in 2022, fleeing the state as laws grew more restrictive. But the Shappleys ran into transphobes in New Haven, too, and moved to an undisclosed Connecticut town in 2023.

Connecticut lawmakers passed a “safe harbor law” in 2022 to protect both families like the Shappleys who flee so-called “states of hate” like Texas, as well as those seeking abortions, as the Washington Post reported.

But how accepting is Connecticut, really?

In July 2023, the Hartford Courant published an analysis of board of education policies from 164 Connecticut school districts that serve nearly 500,000 students, and found that only 28 percent of districts had a specific policy addressing the needs of transgender and nonbinary students. GLSEN, otherwise known as the Gay Lesbian and Straight Education Network, conducted a survey of LGBTQ+ secondary school students in Connecticut, and found that 32 percent of trans students had been prevented from using their chosen name or pronouns at school. Another 39 percent were unable to use a bathroom that aligned with their gender. And 53 percent of students said they were verbally harassed, while seven percent reported being physically assaulted for their gender expression. Nearly 60 percent of students said they never reported incidents to school staff, for fear of retaliation or exclusion.

Behind these statistics is a cold, scary reality: In 2022, 53 percent of transgender and nonbinary youth in Connecticut said they seriously considered suicide, according to the Trevor Project, a nonprofit advocacy group for LGBTQ+ youth. That year, 13 percent of those young people actually attempted suicide. As a survivor of suicide and as a parent of an out trans teen, that’s especially worrisome to me.

It should be noted that ESPN’s report on the 50 states needs to be updated, as Ohio became the 24th state to ban trans student-athletes in January 2024. Injunctions are temporarily blocking some of these laws, including those in Arizona, Idaho and Utah, according to the Movement Advancement Project. As the Associated Press reported, the Republican-dominated Senate voted to override Republican Gov. Mike DeWine’s veto of legislation that not only bans trans student-athletes but also bans gender-affirming surgeries and hormone therapies and restricts mental health care for transgender individuals under 18. DeWine said he vetoed the legislation to protect parents and children from government overreach on medical decisions. Ohio’s new law bans transgender girls and women from girls and women’s sports teams at both the K-12 and collegiate level.

About 400,000 student-athletes play at the high school level in Ohio, according to the Ohio High School Athletic Association, which had since 2015 allowed transgender girls to join female teams if they’ve completed at least one year of hormone therapy. A grand total of seven trans girls participated in high school sports during the 2023-24 school year, while six took part during the 2022-23 school year, according to OHSAA.

In making the case for the ban, Republican State Rep. Jena Powell told WCMH-TV: “Millions of women and little girls in Ohio are looking to the Statehouse and saying, ‘Are you going to protect the integrity of women’s sports? Are you going to allow me, as a woman, to compete on a level playing field in Ohio?’”

Former University of Kentucky swimmer Riley Gaines also spoke in favor of the bill in January 2024, testifying about competing against Lia Thomas, an out trans swimmer from the University of Pennsylvania, in the 200-yard freestyle at the 2022 NCAA swimming championships. I was there in Atlanta, reporting for Forbes and the Los Angeles Blade, when Gaines and Thomas tied for fifth place. Ever since, Gaines has made appearances across the country and on FOX News and other outlets complaining that NCAA officials opted to award the one and only fifth place trophy to Thomas at the event, and they told Gaines hers would be mailed to her. Gaines is a paid spokesperson for the International Women’s Forum, a lobbying group that seeks to ban trans girls and women from competing in girls’ and women’s sports.

“The female athletes who objected to Thomas’ participation in women’s swimming were told to remain silent,” Gaines testified. “Lia Thomas was not a one-off. Across the country and across various sports, female athletes are losing not only titles and awards to males but also roster spots and opportunities to compete.”

In her testimony in Ohio in January 2024, Gaines also challenged OSHAA’s claim that only six trans high school students took part in athletics during the 2022-23 school year. “It’s underreported, the number is certainly more than six,” she told lawmakers in Ohio. “I’ve had more people in the state of Ohio reach out to me specifically who say they’re scared to speak out about this, because they don’t want to be reprimanded,” reported WCMH-TV.

That same month, Ohio Gov. DeWine signed an executive order banning gender-affirming surgeries for people under 18, despite medical professionals testifying that such surgeries aren’t even happening in the state. He also proposed new healthcare rules that would impact transgender Americans in a way no other state has: restricting care not just for transgender children, but also adults, which the Associated Press reported earned him harsh criticism from Democrats and LGBTQ+ advocates. The A.P. reported DeWine’s administration eventually backed off its plans to impose those rules that would have restricted gender-affirming medical treatment for adults.

Laws Restricting Bathrooms and Locker Rooms

Like many activists who oppose inclusion, Gaines consistently refers to trans girls and women as “males” and “biological males,” a nonsense term coined in the 2016 “bathroom bill battle” to describe transgender women who were briefly outlawed from using public restrooms in North Carolina. While that law was repealed, the phrase has since become widely-used, even by advocates for trans rights, despite attempts by the A.P. to discourage such terms. So there has been no repeat of the celebrity, corporate and major sports league backlash that made headlines in 2016, as Utah and nine other states have since passed bathroom bill legislation similar to North Carolina’s H.B.2, including Florida, Tennessee and Kentucky — states that are not coincidentally, among the 25 states where reproductive rights have been limited since the U.S. Supreme Court decision overturning Roe v. Wade, according to the Center for Reproductive Rights. The high court has so far refused to intervene on bathroom bans. In January 2024, the justices allowed a lower court ruling to stand which allows trans students in Indiana to access school bathrooms and locker rooms according to their gender identity.

That stands in sharp contrast to Florida, which Equality Florida advised LGBTQ+ and especially transgender travelers to avoid for fear of draconian new laws, including one that regulates public bathrooms.

As out nonbinary journalist and author Nico Lang reported in The Daily Beast, Florida’s anti-transgender bathroom law is the strictest restriction on trans public restroom use ever to be enacted in the United States.

Signed into law by Republican Gov. Ron DeSantis in May 2023, the “Safety in Private Spaces Act,” more commonly known as H.B. 1521, prohibits trans people from using the bathroom or locker room in facilities owned by the state government that most closely aligns with their gender identities. This includes state colleges, state prisons, airports, beaches, city parks, and public schools. In October 2023, the Florida Board of Education voted to expand the rule to include private colleges.

Compared to the nine other states that currently have bathroom bans on the books, Florida’s is the only one that levies criminal penalties for violators. Breaking this law could result in a misdemeanor trespassing offense, which carries a maximum sentence of a year in prison and a $1,000 fine.

While H.B. 1521 does not apply to private businesses like bars, cafés, grocery stores, restaurants, and shopping malls, Lang reported there is much confusion among the general public about the law and its enforcement.

According to sources who spoke with The Daily Beast, that lack of information has resulted in vigilante behavior, in which civilians have attempted to enforce the statute in venues where it does not actually apply. Lang spoke to trans Floridians who say they have been stopped and questioned while using the locker room at the gym and the bathroom at the gas station, among other places.

New Laws and the Rise in Hate Crimes

The Washington Post reported in March 2024 that in states like Florida, with restrictive anti-LGBTQ+ laws, the number of hate crimes on school campuses from kindergarten through 12th grade has more than quadrupled in the last nine years. At the same time, calls to LGBTQ+ youth crisis hotlines have exploded, with some advocates drawing a connection between the political climate and the spike in bullying and hate crimes.

Hate crimes serious enough to report to police more than doubled nationwide between 2015-2019 and 2021-2022, according to the Post. The report notes that rise is even steeper in the 28 states that have passed laws curbing the rights of transgender students at school and restricting how teachers can talk about issues of gender and sexuality.

When the data is limited to K-12 campuses, the Post reported that increase is even more marked. In states that have enacted restrictive laws, there were more than four times the number of anti-LGBTQ+ hate crimes on average, per year, in 2021 to 2022 compared with the years 2015 to 2019 across elementary, middle and high schools.

In January 2024, the father of a cisgender female student-athlete in Utah made headlines in the Salt Lake Tribune, for insisting that officials ban a transgender girl from playing in a Canyons School District girl’s junior varsity basketball game. But as the Tribune reported, the girl in question is cisgender, not transgender, and the father has since been banned from attending future games. This scenario is likely to be repeated across the nation, as internet trolls have spread this kind of misinformation about famous cisgender college and professional women athletes, including Caitlin Clark, Paige Bueckers and Brittney Griner.

What About Intersex Athletes?

One other wrinkle: Legislative efforts to ban transgender women and girls from playing school sports with other women and girls often fail to consider the impact on intersex students, as NBC News reported. Most advocacy groups estimate that 1.7 percent of people are born intersex — the equivalent of about 5.6 million U.S. residents. That estimate is based on a review published in the American Journal of Human Biology that looked at four decades of medical literature from 1955 to 1998. The estimate includes people with extra or missing sex-linked chromosomes, and those born with other physical variations that don’t fit into categories of “male” or “female.”

Intersex people are born with at least one of about 40 naturally occurring variations relating to their genitalia, internal reproductive organs, chromosome patterns or hormones. Not all intersex people are identified as such at birth, and those who are may still be listed as either “male” or “female” on their birth certificate. That’s because only about 16 states, including Connecticut, currently allow a gender marker designation other than “male” or “female” on birth certificates, and not all hospitals have intersex-affirming policies. The unresolved question looms: Will intersex student-athletes be exempt from anti-trans sports bans, or be swept up in the hysteria to “protect girls and women’s sports”? According to a policy statement issued by the U.S. Department of Education’s Office for Civil Rights in October 2021, “federal civil rights laws protect all students, including intersex students, from discrimination.”

Changes to Title IX

In April 2024, the federal government released new legally binding rules that include treatment based on gender identity within the scope of sex discrimination, among many other changes to Title IX of the Education Amendments of 1972, as ESPN.com reported. Title IX was instrumental in giving women athletes the right to equal opportunity in sports in educational institutions that receive federal funds, from elementary schools to colleges and universities.

The regulations, a draft version of which the Biden administration proposed in June 2022, are scheduled to go into effect Aug. 1, 2024. The new rules also will prevent colleges and coaches from suspending athletes accused of sexual misconduct while school officials investigate complaints against them, as ESPN.com reported.

But there are no new provisions regarding the eligibility of transgender athletes, which had been included in an earlier Department of Education proposal. Officials chose to separate that issue from the broader revisions to Title IX regulations, and they say those regulations will not be released until after November’s presidential election. Reporters asked Biden administration officials whether that delay was politically motivated, and a senior official instead blamed the process of writing the rules, which they said was several months behind schedule.

Whether that’s true doesn’t matter since there is already blowback by a number of “red states” that has set up a federal showdown likely to be decided in a courtroom in these six months remaining before the 2024 presidential election.

Although several courts have ruled that trans and queer students are already protected by the current Title IX regulations — including a decision by the 4th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals in West Virginia in April —officials in at least four states have directed schools to ignore the new regulations, fearing it would usher in not only bathroom accommodations but also policies on pronouns. Those states are Oklahoma, Louisiana, Florida, and South Carolina, according to the Los Angeles Blade.

The U.S. Department of Education responded to complaints by those states’ attorneys general and school superintendents with a statement reminding them that federal funds are at risk if they do not comply.

“As a condition of receiving federal funds, all federally-funded schools are obligated to comply with these final regulations and we look forward to working with school communities all across the country to ensure the Title IX guarantee of nondiscrimination in school is every student’s experience.”

Florida Commissioner of Education Manny Diaz has the support of Governor DeSantis in ignoring the Biden Administration’s threat. In a letter he wrote to schools in the Sunshine State, Diaz stated that the new Title IX regulations were tantamount to “gaslighting the country into believing that biological sex no longer has any meaning.”

In approving the letter, Governor DeSantis added that Florida “will not comply.” In addition to the law restricting trans people from using state-owned public bathrooms matching their gender identity, DeSantis and Florida’s Republican-led legislature have enacted some of the most viciously anti-queer and anti-trans legislation in recent history, including a 2023 law making it harder for trans adults to access gender-affirming care and a 2022 law derided by critics as “Don’t Say Gay or Trans” that was used to force an out transgender female teacher to go by “Mister.” Katie Wood won a temporary injunction in federal court in April 2024 by a judge who said the law violated her First Amendment rights, NBC News reported.

Oh, Oklahoma!

But it’s not just Florida that is leading the charge to make life harder for trans students and teachers in public schools. As the Washington Post has reported, Oklahoma State Education Superintendent Ryan Walters appointed a right-wing media figure, Chaya Raichik, whose social media account is called Libs of TikTok, to an advisory role “to improve school safety.” Raichik has been accused of instigating bomb threats at schools and hospitals across the country that have been tied to her incendiary posts about LGBTQ+ people in education and advocating against gender-affirming care for minors.

In February 2024, NBC News identified 33 instances when people or institutions singled out by Libs of TikTok later reported bomb threats or other violent intimidation. The threats, starting in November 2020, typically came several days after tweets from Libs of TikTok. They targeted schools, libraries, hospitals, small businesses and elected officials in 16 states, Washington, D.C., and the Canadian province of Ontario. Of the 33 threats, 21 were bomb threats, most often targeting schools and made via email.

Sports Bans Expand

The National Association of Intercollegiate Athletics joined the bandwagon of sports organizations round the world that have banned transgender women from women’s competitions starting next school year, according to the Washington Post. The question now is whether the National Collegiate Athletic Association will follow suit.

At the NAIA’s national convention in April 2024, the Council of Presidents determined that beginning Aug. 1, 2024, only students “whose biological sex is female” may compete in women’s sports. That includes transgender men or nonbinary students who are not receiving masculinizing hormones. World Aquatics and World Athletics are among the groups that have also heavily restricted the eligibility of transgender girls and women, barring them from competition if they have experienced testosterone-driven puberty.

“I’m 110 percent disappointed,” said Mack Beggs, a transgender man and former NAIA wrestler for Life University in Marietta, Ga. Competing in college, he said, “meant the world. It not only made me grow as an athlete — it made me grow as a person.”

Marshi Smith, co-founder of the Independent Council on Women’s Sports, a group opposed to transgender inclusion in sports that has funded a lawsuit against the NCAA over its transgender participation policy, called the NAIA’s decision “historic” and urged more groups to “follow the science to preserve the original intent of Title IX.”

“The NCAA needs to look to the NAIA now to do what is just and right,” she told the Post.

A group of more than 400 current and former Olympic, professional and collegiate athletes, over 300 academics and roughly 100 advocacy groups joined forces in April 2024 in urging the NCAA not to ban transgender women from competing in women’s college sports, according to NBC News. Among the signatories: former U.S. Women’s National Team soccer co-captain Megan Rapinoe, former WNBA and Olympic basketball star Sue Bird, and former NFL defensive end R.K. Russell.

2. Deep Pockets Fund Anti-Trans Organizations That Copy/Paste Bills

In March 2023, Axios investigated what it called “the sudden flood of state-level efforts to restrict transgender rights,” and found that it is being fueled by many of the same Christian and conservative groups behind the movement to overturn Roe v. Wade.

These groups include the Alliance Defending Freedom, the Family Research Council, the Liberty Counsel and the American Principles Project, whose combined multi-million dollar efforts target LGBTQ+ rights through what are called “parents’ rights” legislation.

Axios found the groups share templates for bills with right-wing lawmakers in states controlled by Republicans, and provide support for similarly-worded bills aimed at banning minors from attending drag shows, blocking gender-affirming care for transgender minors, and restricting their participation in school sports.

 Spokespersons for these groups told Axios their goal is to shape policy based on their theological and conservative beliefs around sex, gender and family.  It’s a winning argument for Republicans who are excited to embrace a political platform for 2024 whose agenda targets school policies that teach about gender orientation and identity, social emotional learning and the history of racism and injustice. It all falls under the umbrella of “protect the children,” meaning cisgender and white children, of course. 

“These ideas are presented to their children without their consent,” said Travis Weber, the Family Research Council’s vice president for policy and government affairs. He told Axios Christian activists don’t seek to impose their beliefs on others, they’re simply fighting against others’ beliefs being imposed on them.

“Americans are reacting to what they are seeing,” he said, “and it’s being reflected in some of these laws moving.”

My research shows that these conservative and Christian groups have built a network of lobbyists and lawyers that owe their existence to both the “Moral Majority” movement of the 1970s and 1980s as well as the bipartisan “religious freedom” movement of the 1990s.

The Religious Freedom Restoration Act of 1993 was signed into law by President Bill Clinton after Democrats and Republicans, evangelicals, Jews, Muslims, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and the A.C.L.U. and many, other groups put aside their political and religious differences to strengthen legal protections for people of faith.

Sen. Ted Kennedy of Massachusetts and Sen. Orrin Hatch of Utah were its shepherds, and more than 30 years later, the seed planted in November 1993 has sprouted a forest that led to Supreme Court decisions such as 2023’s 303 Creative v. Elenis, in which the justices ruled a businessperson could not be compelled to create art that violates their religious beliefs — specifically, a wedding website for a same-sex couple, even though no such order was ever made or even requested.

An October 2023 investigation by HuffPost revealed another conservative advocacy group that initially concentrated on fighting diversity efforts in medicine has won the backing of Joseph Edeman, a billionaire hedge fund CEO and biotech investor, as it shifts to pushing anti-trans legislation in states across the country.

The group calls itself, “Do No Harm,” after the first line of the Hippocratic oath medical schools have asked their graduates to swear by for generations.

Edelman and his wife provided a $1 million donation to help launch the group of doctors who say they are concerned about ideology influencing the medical profession. The organization has not disclosed its donors or fundraising, but HuffPost obtained tax filings for the Edelman Family Foundation, which Edelman founded and chairs with his wife, Susan Lebovitz-Edelman. The report says those records show that the foundation approved a $1 million donation to “Do No Harm” in 2022, the same year the activist group was founded.

In the year since, “Do No Harm” has hired lobbyists, paid doctors to provide expert testimony and sent advocates to half a dozen statehouses and supplied the model language for at least two bills restricting gender-affirming care that have become law. The group has also filed a handful of lawsuits against efforts to promote diversity in medicine.

In a note describing the donation on its tax filings, HuffPost found that the foundation said it was “to provide support to protect healthcare from a radical, divisive and discriminatory ideology.”

The foundation previously gave large donations to one organization one would consider liberal, the Center for Reproductive Rights, but those gifts stopped after 2021, one year before the historic Dobbs v. Jackson Women’s Health Organization decision. “The Edelman Family Foundation no longer supports the Center for Reproductive Rights because of their adoption of gender ideology,” a spokesman for the foundation told HuffPost. The Edelmans declined to answer any other questions asked by HuffPost.

 Although a state judge blocked one bill enacted with the support of “Do No Harm” from taking effect in Montana, State Rep. Zooey Zephyr — her state’s first transgender legislator — told HuffPost the damage is already done.

“The harm comes before a bill like this bans any particular medication for trans people,” she said. “The harm comes when trans people in Montana see our lives debated.”

3. So Far, the Science is Inconclusive

In August 2023, out trans man, trailblazing athlete and activist Chris Mosier penned a Q&A for Self Magazine. His answer to the first question, “Do trans kids have inherent, unfair advantages in sports?” was “no.”

“Transgender kids, like all kids, vary in athletic ability, size, strength, and speed. There are a lot of factors that go into determining if someone will be a good athlete, including coaching, access to camps and skill development, proper nutrition and rest, high-quality equipment, mental toughness and resilience, and support and encouragement from family, as well as basic capabilities like agility and coordination.”

Mosier noted that Joshua D. Safer, M.D., a staff physician in the endocrinology division of the Department of Medicine at the Mount Sinai Hospital and Mount Sinai Beth Israel Medical Center in New York, provided expert testimony about transgender athletes in 2020, in which he stated that a person’s genetic makeup and internal and external reproductive anatomy are not useful indicators of athletic performance.

Mosier also cited a study commissioned by the Canadian Centre for Ethics in Sport, which looked at all relevant studies about trans women in elite sports from 2011 through 2021. Researchers found that the existing scientific findings do not support banning trans women and girls from women’s sports, wrote Mosier, the first out transgender man to earn a spot on a men’s U.S. national team, a seven–time member of Team U.S.A., a three-time national champion and All-American duathlete and he was the first transgender person to compete in Olympic trials.

            To ensure my research is sound, I followed the old journalists’ adage — “If your mother tells you she loves you, get a second source” — and also spoke with a researcher who has been studying transgender athletes for more than a decade, and is herself an out transgender woman and an avid runner: Dr. Joanna Harper, who was a visiting fellow for transgender athletic performance and a PhD researcher at Loughborough University in England.

Dr. Harper co-authored a systematic review of hormone-based changes in non-athletic transgender women published in the British Journal of Sports Medicine and published the first peer-reviewed study on the performance of transgender athletes. She is also the author of the book Sporting Gender: The History, Science, and Stories of Transgender and Intersex Athletes. Harper has worked with several major sports-governing bodies concerning eligibility policy for transgender and intersex athletes and is currently a medical physicist at Oregon Health and Science University in Portland. She spends most of her time in radiation oncology, working out how to detect cancer with CTs and MRIs, and on the side, she continues to research the science of trans athletes, which as of this date is unpublished.

            What we do know right now is that trans women will maintain some strength advantage over cis women, even after beginning hormone therapy. What we do not know is the magnitude of this strength advantage and whether it is “unfair.”

            I asked Dr. Harper about the groundbreaking study that was sponsored by the International Olympic Committee, released in April 2024, that compared a range of athletic abilities between trans athletes and their cisgender counterparts. As out trans journalist Katelyn Burns reported for MSNBC, researchers found that trans women athletes are at a relative disadvantage in many key physical areas relating to athletic ability and perform worse on cardiovascular tests than their cisgender women athletes.

            “The University of Brighton published a cross-sectional study, looking at athletic trans people, both trans men and trans women and cis men, cis women,” she said. “And in terms of exercise tests, they did a handgrip test, they did a counter movement jump and VO2, on a treadmill.” VO2 refers to maximal oxygen consumption, the maximum amount of oxygen that an individual can utilize during intense or maximal exercise.

All the participants in this study participated in competitive sports or took part in physical training at least three times a week. The 35 trans athletes had to have completed at least one consecutive year of hormone replacement therapy.

“The trans women didn’t score any better on the VO2 or the counter movement jump. They did score higher on the handgrip than cis women. But the relative strength, or strength per body mass, even in the handgrip study, was not higher. And that’s an important finding, and it’s something that our currently non-published data would back up,” said Harper.  

            One thing she said she wants people to know is that much of the research that is touted by anti-trans activists and often cited by lawmakers and sports organizations to support bans on trans athletes are not scientifically sound and approach the issue with a not-so hidden agenda. Harper said she has often been rejected as a researcher because she won’t skew results.

            “It was very clear that they sought out someone who would give them the answer that they thought,” said Harper of the controversial 2021 report by SCEG — the U.K.-based Sports Councils Equality Group. Titled, “Review into Transgender Inclusion in Domestic Sport in the U.K.,” the SCEG claimed that “inclusion of transgender people, fairness and safety cannot co-exist in a single competitive model” across all sports.

“Our group would not have come out with that report,” said Harper. 

            Likewise, Britain’s National Health Service commissioned a review of research into transgender science, and tapped Dr. Hillary Cass, a pediatrician whose social media contacts include leading anti-trans activists. Among her controversial conclusions is that being transgender is “contagious” and that it may be caused by depression, anxiety and autism, claims that have been debunked by dozens of medical organizations, including the American Psychological Association.

Harper’s goal is to bring to light a fairer system for transgender athletes to compete on the world athletic stage. As she wrote in an op-ed in the Washington Post in 2015: “I hope the mounting evidence, coupled with exposure to trans women athletes, will go some way toward changing hearts and minds. The rules established by different leagues are unnecessarily inconsistent, and prejudice persists at all levels of sport — from elite leagues down to high school teams.” 

Harper has encountered both opposition and support in her move to Portland, including in the running group she joined.

“There was one incident where I was out on a group run, and there was a guy who wasn’t very happy. The president of the club was out with us, and the president of the club took this other guy off somewhere, and I’ve never seen this other guy again. I’m sure he’s still alive,” she laughed. “I would like to assert that those of us who don’t fit easily into the standard notion of male and female are just one more variety of human, and there is nothing to be feared or hated,” she said. “We just want to live and breathe and play sports like any other human being.”

HOW COMMUNICATION AND JOURNALISM FACTOR INTO MY RESEARCH

As a journalist as well as a graduate student and part-time college professor, my obligation is to the truth, and to avoid allowing either my own identity or my beliefs to override, shade or distill the facts that I have found on this topic or anything I report, study or teach. However, I am first a human being, and while I do not consider myself an activist, I am an advocate for civil rights, which I maintain are human rights.

So, I started my examination with the understanding that trans women are women and trans men are men, and that trans rights are human rights, even though I am fully aware that these beliefs are not universally-held. In communicating with people outside the transgender and even beyond the LGBTQ+ communities, and with those whose religion or political beliefs put us at odds, I do not hide my identity or my beliefs. However, I use all my communication skills to engage with those who have either formed an opinion or are still questioning, providing a counter to anti-trans propaganda.

When the Alliance Defending Freedom launched its lawsuit against Connecticut’s policy allowing trans girls to compete in 2022, a case that after many twists and turns is still being decided in federal court, I confronted their attorney outside the state capitol at their news conference with the fact that the cisgender girls she represent actually defeated the two Black trans girls at the center of their case, and that the plaintiffs won scholarships to college, and were not denied any opportunity because of the trans girls, who chose to not pursue sports after high school. The mainstream media took the ADF at its word that the trans athletes had an “unfair advantage.”

SEVEN PERSPECTIVES SUPPORTING MY RESEARCH

Karleigh Chardonnay Webb: 52, Out trans journalist, athlete, Peer Support Specialist and Training Coordinator at Trans Lifeline, podcaster, former reporter and ESPN producer, living in New Britain, CT, from Nebraska.

ON CISGENDER PEOPLE: “I think this is something this cisgender society has got to come to grips with. And we’ve got to talk about it. You’re uncomfortable. Cisgender America, I’m talking to you. You are uncomfortable with trans people. And it’s not just in sports. It’s when you’re sitting on the bus. It’s when you’re at the mall. It’s when you’re in school. It’s when you’re at your job. You are uncomfortable and you need to just own that. And you need to sit with it and you need to process it. We need to talk about it.”

ON THE MEDIA: First off, we need more people who are trans and who are LGBTQ+ and who are Black, and who are women and who are brown, and who wear hijabs in newsrooms. That’s why you’re getting what you’re getting. If your newsroom is pale and male, that’s what your coverage is going to look like. Let’s just go. We got to go there. Mainstream media doesn’t want to cover the story. And when they do cover the story, The last thing they want to do is talk to actual trans people.”

FINDING JOY: “What brings me joy in the face of hate is, for starters, people like you, Dawn. Seeing what you’ve done. Seeing what you’ve done as a broadcast professional, as a parent, as a citizen, as a friend, as a mentor. People like Maia Monet, that gives me joy. Seeing [out trans boxer] Patrcio Manuel in a boxing ring, that brings me joy. Seeing [out trans NCAA champion sprinter] CeCé Telfer, whose book is coming out soon, by the way. That brings me joy. Seeing young trans kids out there, living their lives, and seeing trans adults out there, affecting the world and doing great things, and seeing cis allies standing in the gap, like my new teammates with the Connecticut Ambush. And no, to allies, it doesn’t take much to stand in the gap. Standing in the gap simply means that you’re just there.”

Melody Maia Monet: 53, Out trans activist, athlete, photographer, singer, YouTube personality, Princeton graduate, living in Orlando, FL, from Texas and Long Island, N.Y.

ON SPORTS: “It was incredibly validating. I wasn’t necessarily worried about my trans identity because I didn’t really stand out in terms of my athletic performance. I wasn’t even the best player on my [women’s softball] team. And so, it has been great to find kind of a community of women who accept me for who I am, and have never made an issue of me being transgender when I play with them, and it’s incredibly validating. It reminds me it’s in a different arena. But when I joined the Orlando Gay forum, you know, they gave me an option of singing with the altos and singing with the tenors, and I decided to sing with the altos because I wanted that experience of being with other women. And universally, I have found acceptance.”

FLORIDA ANTI-TRANS LAWS: “Well, it’s better in Central Florida than it is in a lot of other places in Florida. From what I can see, despite the new law that makes it necessary to get a prescription from an M.D. for our hormone replacement therapy. We do have several options to go to for doctors, however, from what I’ve seen in other places in Central Florida, like, Tampa, Saint Pete, there are much more limited options. In fact, sometimes people come here to Orlando because they can’t find anything in those areas.” 

FINDING JOY: “I find joy on stage when I’m singing. It feels like home and one of the few places where the sadness and stress of the world just falls away. It’s the one place where I feel like I have a superpower that I can share with other people in a kind of feedback loop of community and feeling. I also love things that take me out of the everyday. I definitely wasn’t built for a 9-to-5 rote life and there are two people in my life who expand it to other venues, stages, and experiences. I lost the joy of family life years ago due to my transition, but these special moments remind me that it wasn’t all loss.”

Dr. Joanna Harper: Prefers to not disclose her age, Out trans researcher and avid runner, living and working in Portland, OR, formerly worked in U.K., from Canada.

SCIENCE OF SPORTS: “Certainly, when it comes to analyzing data, every scientist is, to a certain extent, affected by their viewpoint. But there are going to be four to six other authors on the papers that I come out with. And these are all physiologists at one of the top sports science universities in the world. So, you know, it is a group effort, and it’s not just what Joanna Harper thinks.”

ON THE MEDIA: “There’s a lot right-wing media that, in terms of percentage of major media outlets, it’s skewed more conservative than liberal in the U.K. There are certainly some right-wing media outlets in the U.S. who have been pretty nasty towards trans people, but there were several in the U.K. as well… Every day there’s something negative about trans people, not necessarily trans athletes, but there’s negativity, every single day, about trans people. And it’s certainly discouraging and tiring to see, all that negativity both in the U.K. and in the U.S.”

FINDING JOY: “I’m an athlete. I run every day, especially around here. There are amazing trails up in the mountains and it’s something that’s extremely important in my life to get out and run.”

Kai (and her mother Kimberly) Shappley: 13, Out trans student and activist, moved with her mother and teenage brother from Texas to CT.

ON THE MEDIA: “I’ve seen a lot of media talking about how we’re apparently pedophiles and liars and such.” I asked, “How does that make you feel?” Kai said, “Angry.”

Kimberly added: “ABC news had done a very brief little clip of what Idaho passed, a trans health care ban. And then just said this is a healthcare ban against minors. And that was the whole story. They didn’t talk to any people who are transgender. They didn’t talk to any doctors. They didn’t try to say that this is bad. They didn’t try to sound the alarm. They didn’t show a big ol’ map to scare people. It just was like a blip on the radar. And it pisses me off because people don’t know what the story really is. They don’t understand the gravity of it. Mainstream media just continues to either try to tell both sides of a story, or they just try to gloss over it lightly so that neither side is offended by how they cover it. Well, I’m offended by how they don’t cover it!”

ON LAWS BANNING TRANS ATHLETES: “It’s bullcrap. It’s ignorant, and they’re like, ‘Well, since, they were born with a penis, they’re obviously stronger,’ and all that. And like, I am a prime example, like, that’s not true because I am the most unathletic person!”

Kimberly added: “There are a lot of states passing bans on trans youth playing sport, that there are literally no trans youth even trying to play sports. And it just kind of furthers the stigma and the hatred for the trans community when it’s not even something that was an issue. The other thing is the data and the science, it really does back up what trans people are saying, that you are the gender that you identify with, especially when you’re in your transition. For me, schools constantly are saying sports is so that you learn camaraderie and teamwork. And it’s not about who wins or loses, but how you play the game. And then they’re making laws that say, ‘No, really, it is not about winning or losing, it’s really about — let’s just be honest — it’s really about white cis girls not having to be around people that their parents don’t want them to be around.”

WHAT BRINGS HER JOY: “My mama.”

Kimberly added, “We’ve been taking trips out of Connecticut to go see other displaced trans families that we knew from back home. And the joy that my entire family feels being around other people that we don’t have to explain our trauma to, being around people who just get us, and know where we’ve been. And it has been life-giving for our whole family, and that’s really important.”

ANONYMOUS TEEN: 17, Out trans University of Hartford student from Massachusetts

ON SPORTS: “I don’t know anything about sports, really. I feel if a trans woman wants to be able to play sports\, that should be cool for them. I feel like it’s not cool to decide things for people. That’s what our country does.”  

ON BEING TRANS: “I think people don’t understand what actually being trans means to cis people. For example, I don’t think people that are in class with us know the extent that someone needs to go through to even get hormones. That was really hard for me because I was a minor. I don’t think a lot of people even understand that. And then when it comes to gender-affirming surgery is for me, even though I’ve been on hormones for a while, it’s still impossible to even have done right now because my doctors all consider me too young to even give me a referral.”

FINDING JOY: “I have a really good support system between my friends and my boyfriend, and I feel like I can always confide in them about things. Even my family is accepting, and I can confide in them.”

Maddie Cowdell: 36, Out trans journalist, curler, Assistant News Director, FOX61 WTIC-TV, Hartford, CT, formerly a resident of N.Y., Michigan and California, from Canada.

BEING A TRANS TRAILBLAZER AS THE ONE AND MAYBE ONLY OUT TRANS NEWS MANAGER IN AMERICA, PERHAPS THE WORLD: “You know, that thought never crossed my mind. I never really thought of myself as a trailblazer. I’m just doing my thing. I’m not the transgender assistant news director, I’m the assistant news director who happens to be trans. I think it’s really important to show that we can do anything. And that’s very cool to really think about, how far we’ve come as a society that you’ve been given this opportunity. I think it’ll help eliminate that stereotype of media bias. We need to raise more, uplift more marginalized communities, more communities that don’t always have their say, minority communities. So, having somebody who’s in a leadership position is able to do that a little bit, it shows the direction the business is going as far as removing some of the stereotypical leaders from media. I worked very hard to get to this position. Worked my way up. I’m not in this position simply because I’m trans. I have 16 years ‘experience in this business Some may say that I benefited from male privilege to get to where I am. I don’t know if I could make that argument, just because I was never a male manager or presenting as a male. I was passed over twice, while still presenting as male. I’ve never had to work as hard in my life since I’ve presented as female in a newsroom, than when I was working presenting as male.”

ON MEDIA BIAS: “it’s heartbreaking to see our community struggle. You know, I’ve lived it. I’ve been through some struggles myself. It’s still my job as a manager and my job as a journalist to report fairly. And so, you have to, with anything, remove that personal bias. You just have to report the facts. Research. I think you could use your trans experience as a benefit to get names and pronouns right, to make sure that we’re speaking to the family, speaking to somebody in the community, we kind of have that extra sensitivity. We know there’s certain questions you just don’t ask that maybe somebody who is cisgender may not necessarily think to not ask. But at the end of the day, we still have to report the facts, we still have to speak for those who can no longer speak for themselves. So, it’s a very delicate situation. I definitely take a deep breath, and pause before reviewing stories of that nature, covering a story of that nature. Treat it with a little extra sensitivity, but we just do our job like we always do.”

FINDING JOY: “Driving, my Mini Cooper rallies. I love my car! It’s my own personal space to just do my thing, blast, my music. I find joy in lots of different places. Reaching out on social media. I’ve got a great following on Instagram that’s very community-based. I’m gaining a following on Threads. I have a blog, that I write about my trans experience for everybody. I’m a little bit behind on it.”

AUTOETHNOGRAPHY: MY PERSONAL PERSPECTIVE

            I am not an athlete, and never have been. Sure, I played baseball, basketball and soccer as a child, and as a child actor I once portrayed a quarterback who loved Campbell’s Soup after a game. I am a lifelong, die-hard fan of the always struggling New York Mets. But despite my uncoordinated body and lack of skill, I love sports, and always have. Sports is a tribute to our humanity, teaching us how to lose, how to work as a team and how to excel as an individual, beyond ourselves and our limitations. Sports gives us thrills and breaks out hearts and provides opportunities to feel as though we are part of something bigger than ourselves.

            When I came out as transgender in 2013, it was the biggest challenge of my adult life. While I was briefly euphoric at the victory of living authentically, I am sad to say that I lost the love of my beloved, my home and precious time with my three children. Unwanted publicity in the tabloids caused me unbearable strife, and so I lost to paparazzi and shock jocks, and then lost my career in television news. I nearly lost my life in two failed suicide attempts.

            With the help of mental health professionals and supportive friends, I won something bigger than a World Series or a Super Bowl: I found validation in myself. And today, hundreds of out transgender journalists are now working around the world, having avoided repeating my own downfall and blazing new trails in newsrooms that I started by stepping out of the closet and up to the plate and taking a swing at living an authentic life.

            My own personal experience in dealing with the media is overwhelmingly negative: Having reporters hide in bushes outside my house, ambushing my wife and children by hiding in the shrubs, knocking on neighbors’ doors to ask, “Do you know the tranny who lives next door?”

            Since then, I’ve turned the tables. I went one-on-one with Fox News anchor Laura Ingraham. When an ex-Marine turned NewsMax anchor asked me on live TV if I had “the surgery.” I told him and his blonde bimbo co-anchor, “There’s only one dick on this couch!” Fan mail from viewers poured-in, saying I made them laugh out loud.

CONCLUSION

Sports have never been fair, and there is no such thing as a “level playing field.”

            Whether they were cavemen or naked Greek men competing in the first Olympics, there have always been athletes with biological advantages over their competitors: Athletes who are taller, faster, can jump higher, move more smoothly or throw harder than the second tallest, fastest, strongest athlete, and all the rest.

            Why is it no swimmer ever complained it was “unfair” to have to compete against Olympic champion Michael Phelps? He won 23 gold medals and is also 6’4”, has a wingspan of 6’7” (a 1:1 ratio height to wingspan is typical) and double-jointed ankles that allow him to move his size 14 feet back and forth 15 degrees more than is typical.

Why is it no gymnast protests having to compete with Simone Biles, the unquestioned GOAT of American gymnastics — male or female — and the most decorated gymnast in human history? She is 4’8” — that’s 7.5” shorter than the average American woman — in a sport where being shorter makes it easier to pull off the most acrobatic of routines. And nothing Biles does looks easy. But no one says, “that’s unfair!”

            Bigots only say that when they see a trans girl or a trans woman, or someone they suspect is trans. They ignore the fact that trans women do not always win. In fact, trans athletes lose competitions just as much as any cisgender athlete does, as we reported when I managed Outsports. Had my research revealed that trans girls and women have a clear physical advantage that allows them to always win in every sport in which they compete, I would have reported that information.

            But they don’t. So why ban them from doing what they love without evidence? Why report the wins without the losses? Why spread misinformation and outright lies about trans people? Because of sloppiness in journalism, because of agenda-driven reporting and politicking, and because people fear the unknown, and in large swaths of America and the world, trans people are few and far between.

            Among the worst offenders: out gay tennis icon Martina Navratilova, who sides with Fox News against trans women and transgender ally Billie Jean King.

            “It’s impossible to hate anyone whose story you know,” said a woman to the person who came out as her transgender daughter. That daughter went on to become a college professor, a celebrated scholar, a best-selling author, the president of PEN and my friend, Jennifer Finney Boylan. Telling her story as she did in She’s Not There gave me the strength to own my truth, to tell my story, and to make it this far on my journey.

I am far from done.

Easter Rising

IMG_5891It’s been a few months since my last blogpost, and I felt today was a good day to count my blessings.

Tonight is the 3rd night of Passover, and the day that I used to mark as Easter Sunday. My conversion to Judaism is imminent, and it makes my heart soar to be on this journey.

I don’t see it as leaving anything behind as much as accepting a truth about myself and where my spirit and soul reside, and it is in the faith of my children, my beloved, and my in-laws. And perhaps also in the legacy of my great, great grandfather Moses Ennis, a tailor in Castlebar, County Mayo, Ireland.

So nu?

This week, Irish people the world over will mark the 103rd anniversary of the Easter Rising.

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Because I stumbled soon after my transition became public in 2013, I feel connected to the bloody rebellion against England. Like me, it at first failed, but ultimately led to the creation of the Irish Free State, a republic that is my ancestral home, and still home to both my mother and father’s families. Which makes them my family.

It was two years ago this summer that the children and I traveled to our ancestral homeland. I look forward to returning to Ireland, perhaps in 2020. Or sooner, if President Trump continues to oppress transgender Americans as he and his administration are doing. Some folks would go to Canada, but it’s Ireland for us.

Our extended family still needs your prayers and good thoughts, as one of our loved ones is ailing. I won’t get into details because they’re not mine to share.

But other than that, life is good. No, really!

In fact, we’re all doing well. Our oldest is in his last quarter of his first year of college. Our middle child is finishing her junior year and we’re starting to look at colleges, and the youngest is a boy scout in seventh grade and studying for his bar mitzvah this fall.

Together we are doing all the planning, and this being my first one without his mom to help us, I’ll admit it’s a challenge. But we have the hall, the cake, the deejay and a theme. Next up is invitations, seating charts and of course, the actual ceremony and celebration!

I’ve been teaching journalism, advertising and public relations at the University of Hartford since January, and I’ll be back in the fall. This week, my students in my Writing for the Media class are almost at the conclusion of viewing “All The President’s Men.”

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My News Reporting students are conducting interviews, asking people their thoughts on the redacted Mueller Report. Their assignment: find people on both sides of the Trump divide.

I’ve been managing editor of Outsports since February and it’s been going very well. This was my most favorite story to tell so far, and this one was an exclusive. 

And last week, I signed a contract to be a contributor to Forbes.com, starting soon. So, financially, we’re in the best shape we’ve been in since 2016. I still have huge debts, and even with three paychecks, we still struggle, but my head is at long last above water.

Yes, life is good. Our seder was fun and for the first time in the 22 years since I’ve been co-hosting seders, we had a guest, our housemate Kati. Dahlia was there but we missed having our oldest child at the table! In fact, it’s the first time in 20 years we didn’t have all three children sitting with us, and our third Seder since we lost the most important person in our lives. But life goes on.

As it must. And there will be people who will gossip and whisper about the fact that for the first time in a long time I shared photographs of our children here. Well, let them.

It’s proof we are happy, and together (sorta), and thriving. And that’s worth sharing.

Heart-broke

UPDATE: Thank you to everyone who helped heal my broke heart this Valentine’s Day! 💔 Our immediate needs have been met. I’m so very grateful!

I shouldn’t need to do this.

Unlike last Valentines Day, I’m working. I actually now have two steady jobs! Those of you who read this blog regularly know Massage Envy fired me from my customer service job in January 2018, 5 days after I came out at work as transgender. I have been freelance writing and editing for three years, ever since becoming a widow and resigning my job as news editor at The Advocate Magazine so I could move back to Connecticut and raise our three children. And I’m sure everyone knows I was fired from ABC 5 years ago after coming out.

Now, things are finally really looking up: Last month I started teaching 5 days a week at the University of Hartford, and I was just announced as the managing editor of the website, Outsports. I’m very excited to finally share some good news!

But the reason I’m writing to you today is because I’m in that awful place where new jobs start but you don’t see a dime for several weeks, and that’s not the fault of the university or my bosses at Vox. This is entirely the fault of a company called Pride Media.

As I’ve made clear in my social media posts, I’m one of dozens of freelance writers owed thousands of dollars, by this corporate parent company of Out Magazine, among others. Check out the hashtag #OutOwes.

They only owe me $400, but that $400 would bridge the gap between unemployment and steady work, and truly change the lives of my children and me.

Our life savings is gone. With that $400, I’d be able to pay the bill to reinstate my auto insurance policy. I’d be able to pay the bill to reconnect the internet service and basic cable TV. We already have an antenna, but my job requires me to keep an eye on news and sports channels that are only available via cable. I’d be able to pay the cell phone bill. Most importantly, I’d be able to buy groceries for my family; we’ve got enough for today but even with rationing, we’ll soon run out of food.

I hate having to ask. But I’ve asked Pride Media, I’ve even begged, and yet… nothing. Not even a promise of “the check is in the mail.”

The lowest point was earlier this week, when my daughter and I ran out of feminine pads. I asked a woman on the Pride Media team, please take some of the money you owe me, please go to a store, please buy us some pads and please, please, please send them overnight.

Nothing.

Two friends saw my pleas on social media and yesterday they sent us $18 each. That’s “Chai” in Hebrew, and traditionally a symbolic and meaningful gift. Those $36 mean the world to us.

I used it to buy pads, buy some food, and get us through this crisis until Pride Media and my new employers pay me.

Until then, we’re still in crisis. If you are in a position to help, we really could use it now.

To support us directly, you can send funds through Venmo (@Dawn-Ennis-1) or PayPal (https://www.paypal.me/DawnEnnis). You can also contribute to the Ennis Family Scholarship Fund Trust, either online at this link: https://www.gofundme.com/zc4q96x4

That fund won’t help us in our immediate need, but contributions are still very appreciated and most welcome as every dollar goes toward my children’s education.

My oldest son is 20 and studying at the University of Chicago, and he just got a job at the school library; my daughter is 16, sings in four choirs, and just started working at Goodwill, and my youngest is 12, a Boy Scout and studying for his bar mitzvah in the fall.

Thank you, and I hope you find love today, and always!

I Got A Lesbian Republican for Christmas

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Merry Christmas to all who celebrate!

This time on RiseUP With Dawn Ennis, I’m delighted to have Mary Fay in the studio. We discuss the recent election and its result, being a Republican in a progressive community, Connecticut politics and how she can be both an out lesbian and a Republican.

IMG_4380You might recall that last month, I interviewed her empty chair. She was a no-show!

Well, she showed up this time! And we had a great conversation, even if we didn’t agree on much. She was the first Republican to be my guest, and hopefully not the last.

Watch here, and scroll down for links mentioned in this month’s episode!

To know more about Mary Fay, you can go to her campaign’s Facebook page here.

And you can find out more about our representative government here in West Hartford, Connecticut, by clicking here.I myself  am an alternate representative to the town Democratic committee, representing District 1. Find out about us here, and please join us! If you’re interested in the Republican committee, they have a website, too. 

One of the issues we discussed were tolls coming to Connecticut, and although Ms. Fay told me I was wrong, you can read for yourself that a study shows they will bring $1B to our financially-strapped state. Here’s the report in the Hartford Courant.

And if you’d like to communicate with the woman who beat Ms. Fay for the 18th Legislative district seat, you’ll find Jillian Gilchrest on Twitter.  Incidentally, I’ve learned Jillian still has not received a promised call from Ms. Fay conceding the election.

Here’s the link I promised you about Connecticut Voice Magazine! Launch is set for March 2019!

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That’s all for our January episode of RiseUP, and I invite you to like, share and subscribe to our YouTube channel.

Also listen to the podcast I’m now doing with Chardonnay Merlot, Before The War. We discuss politics, transgender issues and news of the week.

IMG_4873We took some time off recently because of the holidays, the death of Chardonnay’s grandfather and my own recovery from surgery at Mount Sinai’s NY Eye and Ear Infirmary.

Despite the name of the facility, my surgeon is now performing vaginoplasty surgeries there. I suffered a complication in June from the operation he performed in May, and so my recent surgery was aimed at correcting that. All is well!

More good news: I will be teaching courses in journalism in the new year at the University of Hartford and you can also find my work at my portfolio page. Just click on the “articles” tab.

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Since this is the Christmas season, I thought I’d leave you with three “gifts.” First, two articles just published by The Advocate Magazine, profiling some amazing people I met at the NYC Pride march… Kaia Naadira and Ty Defoe! Click on their names to read!

Then, some politically-inspired carols… (SCROLL DOWN)

And last, the latest video from my BFF Maia Monet in which she wrangled Santa Claus (Dev Zebra) into listening to the Christmas wishes of transgender people! (KEEP SCROLLING)

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I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There’s just one change we need.
I don’t care about Jared or Junior
Let them spend this Christmas free.
I just want 
#Trump‘s mobile phone
Then let him go to Mar-A-Lago
We’ll end the shutdown, too.
All I want for Christmas
Is a COUP.

Silent night, Shutdown night
Everyone’s gone, turn out the lights
‘Round the world, allies gone wild
Holy shit, Trump is out of his mind
Sleep with porn stars, grab pussy
Sleep with porn stars, grab pussy!

We wish you a Mueller Christmas
We wish you a Mueller Christmas
We wish you a Mueller Christmas and a Happy Indictment
Fake Newscasts we bring to you and your kin
We wish you a Mueller Christmas and a Happy Indictment!

Closing bells ring, are you listening
On Wall Street, stocks are slipping
A terrible fright
We’re crying tonight
Watching our markets crashland.
Gone away are our investments
Here to stay is a depressment
#Trump was so wrong
To boast all along
While our markets crashland.

Donald the Conman
Was a lying racist clown 
With combover hair and tiny hands
And pouting lips in a permanent frown
Donald the President
Lied ’bout the wall: Mexico won’t pay
And his base was surprised when
Before their eyes
All those promised jobs went away.

You know Flynn and Manafort and Gates and Cohen
Kellyanne and Sarah and Jared and Stephen
But do you recall
The most famous Trumpster of all?
Ivanka the President’s Daughter
Plays a very shady role
And if you ever saw her
You would even say she knows
More than the other reindeer!

Mueller baby, slip your report under the tree for me
Been an awful good girl
Mueller baby, and hurry up with your Trump indictment 
Mueller baby, more indictments, too, for Mike Pence, too
I’ll wait up for you, Robert
Mueller baby, so hurry to the White House tonight

I really can’t wait (Baby Mueller’s outside)
I gotta go to Mar-A-Lago (Baby Mueller’s outside)
This term has been (Been hoping that it would end)
So very sad (I’ve noticed your hands really are tiny like a toy)
Mike Pence will start to worry (Not as much as we worry!)

Just hear breaking news alerts jingling, ring tingle tingling, too 
Come on, it drives me crazy my phone blows up ‘cuz of you 
Feels like the sky is falling and friends are crying “boo hoo!” 
Come on, it’s time for Mueller to finish so we can get rid of you!

‘Twas the Sunday before Christmas, when all thro’ the House, Not a congressman was stirring, not even The shutdown begun by the POTUS who dared Hoping his base soon would not care; The children nestled in cages of dread Forget freedom, just don’t let them be dead.

Well,
I have a little witness
I made him talk today
And when the indictment’s ready
Then, a video I shall play
Oh, Jared, Jared, Jared
What you told me I can’t say
But when the indictment’s ready
Then, #Trump will say, OY VEY.

Happy Holidays and here’s wishing to a fabulous 2019!

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Candles, Candidates and Canines

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The 20th annual Transgender Day of Remembrance was observed on Tuesday, and my friend Kati Ennis and I attended the commemoration in Hartford, Connecticut. You can see some of the very moving program in the new episode of RiseUP With Dawn Ennis.

I was invited by Rev. Aaron Miller to deliver the Interfaith Prayer, which was a poem by Rabbi Rami Shapiro, What To Do. I was humbled by the amazing stories and reflections of the speakers: Regina Dyson, Brianna Johnston, Mia Lozada, Aeryn Grady (audio problems prevented me from including Aeryn in my show), Maeve Martinez and the incredible author, life coach and public speaker, Tony Ferraiolo.

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Also in this new episode, what was supposed to be a sit down interview with Republican West Hartford Town Councilor Mary Fay — who ran and lost in the local election for state legislator to newcomer Jillian Gilchrest — turned out quite differently than I had anticipated. Fay, an out lesbian who also won the endorsement of the Independent Party in Connecticut, had agreed to an interview during the campaign, then reneged.

I caught up with her on Election Day as she greeted voters, and she promised to appear on my show. But when it came time to record the episode, Fay again sent her regrets, complaining of a bout with a stomach bug. She’s offered to appear on a future episode. The chair remains empty, so we’ll see. Fay was set to be the very first Republican to appear on my program; instead, she is the very first “no show” in 16 episodes since March 2017.

What you will see instead of Mary is Maggie, or as we now call her, Dahlia. She’s a rescue adoption dog who became part of our family thanks to Scott Turner Schofield and GLAAD, and the team at Litton Entertainment, a Hearst company, that produces a new reality series: Ready Set Pet on The CW.

You can see clips in this new episode of RiseUP With Dawn Ennis: 

Watch the entire episode of Ready Set Pet here:

Check out the Connecticut Humane Society for more pets available for adoption!

If you’re interested in West Hartford Town politics, learn more by clicking here. 

Find out more about Tony Ferraiolo at this link.

And thanks to journalist, writer and author Gwen Smith for continuing the very difficult task of compiling the names for TDoR. That link is here. 

Check out the new blogsite for our companion podcast, Before The War. 

Cancer is stalking me

It’s taken me all week to process this, and share this news. A few days ago, on my mother’s birthday, I got the results of a genetic test following my annual mammogram (#12) and I learned I inherited the BRCA1 gene, putting me at “high risk” for cancer. Most folks have a one percent chance; the odds for me are 50/50.

Given the fact I lost my beloved Wendy, my father and my father in law to this killer, I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. And it’s not like I’ve been diagnosed, not at all. I am surrounded by fighters and survivors and relatives of those who fought… so I am, at the moment, still on the sidelines… or to use a baseball analogy, I am in the bullpen, warming up.

I’m not going to just sit here; I am heeding this wake up call. The road ahead will be marked by enhanced screenings, a better diet and more exercise. I will fight cancer before it gets its cold dead hands on me. I will survive this as I’ve survived every single challenge and overcome every obstacle in my path. My children and those who love me expect nothing less.

I feel as if cancer is a stalker, or worse: a serial killer. And the cops just knocked on my door to warn me I’m a potential target.

“Get out of town while you can!” they say. So I have bid farewell to the city of bad eating habits and sedentary living. I am running for my life.

If you’ll allow me one more metaphor, I will wage a war through my writing and my social media and my media platforms. And if you have a relative in your immediate family who is either a cancer survivor or was diagnosed, I strongly encourage you to check with your insurance about getting tested. Mine was covered 100% and I’m grateful that I have this knowledge to set the course ahead to healthier living.

Click here to learn more about BRCA1 and BRCA2 gene mutations and genetic testing.

Yeah, Bye

IMG_3552Connecticut State Senator Beth Bye took time from the campaign trail to talk with me about her re-election bid, #MeToo, taxes, tolls, Trump and Brett Kavanagh.

And we discussed our wives. Like me, Bye married a teacher, and together they made history as the first same-sex couple to legally wed in Connecticut.

My late wife knew her, since Bye served on West Hartford’s Board of Education and supported her first bid to run for the state senate in 2010.

Watch my interview with Sen. Bye at the link below, and scroll down for links mentioned in episode 15 of RiseUP With Dawn Ennis. 

Here is where you can weigh-in on the confirmation of Judge Brett Kavanaugh to the Supreme Court. Click here to tweet to me, or add your comment below. Who do you believe? Dr. Christine Blasey Ford? Or Judge Kavanaugh?

If you are a victim of sexual assault, you are not alone. Now more than ever, victims like us are coming forward to share our stories. Help is available, too. Call 800-656-HOPE or go to the website for the National Sexual Assault  Hotline by clicking here. You can chat online with someone there, too. My own story is here. 

Here’s the link to Senator Bye’s website. Election Day is November 6th and West Hartford Democrats are eager to help if you need an absentee ballot, a ride to the polls, or if you’re looking to volunteer. They’re also happy to plant a yard sign on your lawn. Get in touch with them here or email the party at info@westhartforddemocrats.org 

Find out about the ballot in Connecticut by clicking on this link to the League of Women Voters.

Register to vote in Connecticut by clicking here. 

Find out how to register to vote in your state by clicking this link. 

You can read about Bye’s GOP opponent, Phil Chaboton his website here. 

Bye supports Democrat Ned Lamont in his bid to succeed my prior guest, Gov. Dan Malloy as Governor of Connecticut. You can read about his campaign here. 

If you’d like to read about Lamont’s opponents, click on these links to the websites of Bob Stefanowski and Oz Griebel.  Are Stefanowski’s pledges to cut taxes a false promise? Read what the Connecticut Mirror reported. 

CNN reported on the shocking lack of safe sex education in America’s schools. Read the report here, or click here for the original report from the nonpartisan Center for American Progress. 

So you want to tell your story? For 13 of our 15 episodes so far, I’ve been blessed to have friends, acquaintances and social media superstars join me as “special correspondents.”

Send me a message in the comments or via Twitter or Facebook and tell me how you’re “rising up!”

Thanks for reading and for watching! Catch up on prior episodes of RiseUP With Dawn Ennis by clicking here. 

16196003_10211796575569994_8450269662268401269_nOne last note: I mentioned my late spouse Wendy Lachs Ennis both here in my blog and during this month’s episode, because she was how I first learned about Sen. Bye, and because I think about her every day ending in “Y.” Saturday would have been our 22nd wedding anniversary… if not for my transition, and her passing.

Despite being gone 2 years and 9 months, she is always on our minds and in our hearts. It’s been especially hard sending our firstborn off to college without her, teaching our only daughter how to drive, planning our youngest’s Bar Mitzvah, mindful of her spirit but missing her presence and participation.

And our financial struggle to support our children’s education is no less difficult, having lost my most recent steady job to budget cuts last month.

If you are not already one of the many wonderful friends and strangers who have generously supported our children’s education fund, I hope you will consider making a contribution. All the money, every penny, goes to our eldest son’s college fund and the bank account set aside to educate his younger brother and sister. You can do so by clicking here for the GoFundMe account

Thank you!

“Does your husband know you’re doing this?”

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“Does your husband know you’re doing this?” That was one of the questions Democrat Jillian Gilchrest faced when she went door-to-door across West Hartford, Conn., in her first political campaign ever. “Yes, he does, and he supports me 100-percent,” Gilchrest told the skeptical man.

Skeptics were decidedly outnumbered in the August primary in which Gilchrest defeated a 23-year incumbent for his seat in the Connecticut State Legislature, representing her hometown in the 18th Assembly district. Andy Fleischmann’s 12-terms as a strong advocate for West Hartford and most recently as chairman of the education committee were not enough to overcome the wave of momentum Gilchrest had built both online and in person.

Watch my interview with Jillian Gilchrest by clicking the link below, and you’ll find more links and information about this month’s episode by scrolling down.

Gilchrest faces Republican Town Councilor Mary Fay in the November election.

Here’s the link to Gilchrest’s campaign and you can follow her on Twitter by clicking here.

You can read about outgoing Assemblyman Fleischmann here.

If you haven’t registered to vote, or you want to check or change your affiliation, click here if you live in Connecticut and click here for any other state. 

If you’re interested in learning more about the NLGJA — The Association of LGBTQ Journalists, click here for their website. 

The incident involving former member Marshall McPeek was first reported in a tweet by them’s Mary Emily O’Hara: 

Marshall McPeek, shown on the left in the photo of the emcees. apologized and resigned his membership in the NLGJA. 

There has been a firestorm of reaction since the incident.

I added my own comments in response to Mr. McPeek’s tweeted apology:

However, another NLGJA member, Steve Freiss, offered a different opinion, declaring “Everybody’s wrong,” and I share it here in an attempt to show there is more than one side to this story.

Your comments are welcome.

Send me a message if you’re interested in being our next special correspondent!

And stay tuned for details about BEFORE THE WAR, the upcoming podcast I’m launching soon with Chardonnay Merlot!

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The History Maker

“Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.” – philosopher George Santayana, from  The Life of Reason: The Phases of Human Progress

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William Tong has already made history. But if Connecticut voters choose him on August 14th, he’ll be on his way to making history again.

Tong, a native of my current hometown, West Hartford, Conn. and a state representative from Stamford, is running to be Connecticut’s next Attorney General. He has already won the endorsement of the state Democratic party and of fellow Democrats here in his original hometown of West Hartford, including our prior guest and his former competitor, assistant attorney general Clare Kindall. Other famous names on Tong’s bandwagon include Sen. Ted Kennedy, Jr., the United Auto Workers and the Working Families party.

tong_legislatureThose endorsements are significant because Tong is the first Asian-American in state history to win that level of crucial political support. He was already the first Asian-American elected to the state House of Representatives, and if he wins the upcoming primary and the general election in November, will be the first constitutional officer in the history of Connecticut of Asian heritage. 

Who is Tong? His biography reveals he studied under Barack Obama before he became president, and he is the son of immigrant parents:

“The Tongs owned a Chinese restaurant where William worked alongside his parents before going to Brown University and then the University of Chicago Law School where he was taught by then-Professor Barack Obama. He is currently a lawyer at Finn, Dixon & Herling LLP, one of Connecticut’s leading law firms where he practiced law for 14 years… William lives with his wife, Elizabeth, their three children and many pets in Stamford. Elizabeth is Vice President of Tax for North America for the Diageo Corporation.” 

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Tong and I sat down this week for a wide-ranging interview on RiseUp With Dawn Ennis, the talk show I’ve been hosting on WHC-TV and YouTube for about a year and a half. We discussed immigration, politics, President Trump, civil rights, the second amendment and 3D printed guns as well as Republican candidates’ calls to abolish the state income tax.

Watch the show here:

If you’re interested in learning more about William Tong, click here for his campaign website and click here for his state representative page which is of special interest to those living and working in Stamford and Darien.

Who else is running to succeed Democrat George Jepsen? It’s a crowded field. His Democratic primary opponents are:

And on the Republican side:

Hatfield, like Mattei, has experience as a prosecutor, a job Tong claims is not relevant to the post they are all seeking, since the A.G. doesn’t deal with criminal law so much as civil law. Hatfield won the Republican party’s endorsement.

Learn more about all the candidates by clicking here, RiseUP has extended an invitation to all the candidates running, but so far, only Tong has accepted.

The primary is August 14th, the general election is November 6th, and the online deadline to register to vote in Connecticut is August 9th, but you can register in person right up until and including August 14th. Details on how to do that are right here.

If you’re interested in learning more about 3D printed guns, the Washington Post and USA Today each have a good overview here. After we recorded this episode, a federal judge on Tuesday, July 31st blocked a Texas man from uploading blueprints for such weapons to the internet.

The issue of transgender rights remains contentious across America. The ACLU outlines how that battle was won in Connecticut, but for those who live elsewhere, being trans can be a fireable offense, a reason to be evicted, and too often makes people a target for violence. See how your state stacks up by clicking here for a look at the Equality Maps from the Movement Advancement Project. 

And if you’re interested in learning more about this month’s special correspondent, Mya Byrne, check out her website here and connect with her on Facebook and click here for to follow her on Instagram. And you can subscribe to her YouTube channel here.

If you’d like to be our next special correspondent, you’ll find some simple guidelines on our Facebook page. Please like, share and subscribe and follow us on Twitter and now also on Instagram!

Later this fall, I’ll share more details about the reality show taped in West Hartford last month, that connected my family with the Connecticut Humane Society. With the help of producers from The CW we adopted a 7-month-old Labrador/Retriever possibly German Shepherd mix who we have named Dahlia. 

Finally: August is typically a “hiatus” month for West Hartford Community Television, so I am very grateful to WHC-TV Executive Director Jennifer Evans for making an exception for this election-focused timely episode! See y’all in September with a new episode of RiseUP With Dawn Ennis. 

 

Pride in the name of… Dawn

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Just because June is over doesn’t mean it’s the end of pride celebrations. This month on my talk show, RiseUP with Dawn Ennis,we cover a lot of ground, and if you’ll forgive me for boasting… I have a lot to boast about.

IMG_1597.PNGThis summer has been one big event after another for me, personally. And for my eleventh episode of this series on WHC-TV and YouTube, I’ve decided to navel-gaze, and share some personal milestones:

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  • My victory over Connecticut’s state Medicaid program, Husky, to have the surgeon of my choice perform a life-saving and affirming operation culminated in that surgery on May 15th;
  • My children and I welcomed a new addition to our happy home (NO, I am not and never will be pregnant!);
  • And my selection as a community hero by Heritage of Pride (organizers of the NYC Pride March), which put me front and center at the historic 49th annual event on June 24th, alongside several genuine LGBTQ icons. Click here for the link to the names of all of this year’s honorees.

Hello, imposter syndrome! 

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Kaia Naadira (left), Emma Gonzalez and Dawn Ennis

Yes, that woman with the crew cut standing to my right is indeed Emma Gonzalez,18, a graduate of Parkland, Fla.’s Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School, and survivor of the deadly school shooting rampage on February 14th.

36177311_10216645339866071_383963565091979264_nWe talked at length about how she’s dealt with all she’s seen, handling haters, her hairstyle and her choice for college. Her mom is a sweetheart and entrusted me to keep an eye on Emma as she walked ahead of the float we rode through Lower Manhattan.

IMG_1579And because I am a journalist first and foremost, I also took time before and after the march to do my job: I interviewed the woman in the center of this photo, the queer-identified gender nonconforming artist and video innovator Kaia Naadira, whose mother Tarana Burke started the #MeToo movement. I also spoke with Two Spirit performance artist Ty Defoe, right, who followed Pride with a stint on Broadway alongside transgender icon Kate Bornstein in Straight White Men. 

You can read the interviews in an upcoming print issue of The Advocate Magazine as well as watch the interviews in this month’s episode, on YouTube, below. And below the episode, you’ll find links promised during the show.

My friend Kati and I also met one of my lifelong heroes, Billie Jean King, one of the grand marshals.

IMG_1769If you don’t know how she single-handedly changed the world — not just the world of sports — watch this Peabody Award-winning documentary about the tennis and women’s movement and lesbian legend here. 

I asked King about “Battle of the Sexes,” the recent movie about her historic 1973 tennis match against Bobby Riggs, and how producers had suggested they “leave out” that she was lesbian, since at the time she was married to her ex-husband. “You can’t leave that out!” she told them.

King also had this to say, in the Portrait of a Pioneer documentary:

“Even though I get discouraged sometimes, if you’re a girl or a woman, you’re supposed to be really happy when you get the crumbs. I don’t want just the crumbs! I want the cake and the icing. Everybody deserves the cake and the icing.”

The other grand marshals for 2018 were Lambda Legal, Tyler Ford, and Kenita Placide.

  • Placide, pictured above left with King, is OutRight Action International’s Caribbean-based Advisor and the Executive Director of the Eastern Caribbean Alliance for Diversity and Equality (ECADE). She has been an advocate for HIV and human rights, youth and LGBTI issues, for over 12 years. Instrumental in organizing the first OECS regional security and human rights training for LGBT and sexual rights defenders in 2011, she made history co-coordinating the Caribbean’s first International Dialogue on Human Rights in 2012.
  • Lambda Legal is the oldest and largest national legal organization whose mission is to achieve the full recognition of the civil rights of the LGBTQ community and everyone living with HIV through impact litigation, education, and public policy work. In the past year alone, Lambda Legal has sued to stop the transgender military ban, defended marriage equality nationally, fought federal, state and local-level discrimination, and continued to advocate for the most vulnerable members of our community – including youth, seniors, the trans community, and communities of color.
  • Tyler Ford is an award-winning agender advocate, writer, and speaker, whose creative and critical writing on queer and trans identity inspires, comforts, and challenges a diverse spectrum of audiences. Ford is also the Deputy Editor at Condé Nast’s them, a next-generation LGBTQ community platform.
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If you’re like my youngest son and you’d like to know more about Stonewall and the 1969 protests and riots that sparked the LGBTQ pride movement (there were several other uprisings, such as in Philadelphia and San Francisco that preceded Stonewall, incidentally), read this history of how it came to be here. If not for Marsha P. Johnson and Sylvia Rivera, it might never have.

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I met two heroes who are living witnesses to history,  riding along with me on the Community Heroes float: trans activist Victoria Cruz, and Tree Sequoia, who’s tended bar at The Stonewall Inn for decades.

For details about the Center for Transgender Surgery at Mount Sinai Hospitalin New York City, you can visit their website here, and don’t be surprised when you see my familiar mug online! The hospital hired several LGBTQ actors and trans models for their promotional material and in-house videos, me among them.

36442620_10156579209593408_7411668171846844416_o.jpgIf you’re interested in the surgeon who performed my operation, he’s Dr. Jess Ting, Not only is he famous for innovating a technique that provides women like me natural lubrication — a groundbreaking medical breakthrough featured prominently on TV’s Grey’s Anatomy”  — he also recently worked with Dr. Marci Bowers to perform that same surgery on Jazz Jennings, the teen reality star. She’s someone I have been blessed to meet twice in the last five years. IMG_0901

The New Haven Register reported on my surgery last month, and not for any reason but to raise awareness of the battle I waged. I fought for me, but I also don’t believe it’s fair that I should be the first and last transgender resident of Connecticut to be allowed this oppportunity.

I would never have granted the reporter the interview just to talk about me; I talked about this fight in an episode last fall and you can read about it here. The battle is not over just because I got mine.

Speaking of names in the news, I was interviewed by The New York Times for a story that was published on the same day as the NYC Pride March, about traveling while trans and people around the world who identify as LGBTQ. Or as The Times put it, L.G.B.T.Q.  You can read that story here, and although it’s the first time I’ve had my name in the newspaper of record, I hope it’s not the last!

Find out about NYC Pride by clicking here, and make plans now for the 50th anniversary celebration in June 2019!

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Outsports Prideis an annual event that anyone interested in sports and equality should definitely add to your calendar!

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At The Advocate I earned the nickname “SportsGirl” so this was a genuine honor to be asked to moderate a panel, featuring:

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  • Nevin Caple. The former NCAA basketball player for Farleigh-Dickinson University is a co-founder of LGBT SportSafe, which seeks to build inclusion for athletes and coaches of any sexual orientation or gender identity.
  • Sarah Axelson. Axelson is a former softball player at the University of Mary Washington. She is currently the Director of Advocacy for theWomen’s Sports Foundation, and:
  • Clare Kenny. Now campaigns manager at GLAAD and working with campus programs, Kenny is a former volleyball player at Skidmore College and build an LGBTQ inclusion program in her athletics department.

IMG_5330Thank you to Cyd Ziegler of Outsports for inviting me, and for being so generous as to also welcome my friend Kati Ennis, who has been my right hand, my helper, my chauffeur, cook, and co-mom while I’ve been focused on my recovery. She and her dogs have moved in with us at our home in Connecticut and we are all ever so grateful!

Together we met San Francisco 49ers coach Katie Sowers — the first woman to coach in the NFL — and Ryan O’Callaghan, the out former Patriots star. I urge you to donate to his Ryan O’Callaghan Foundation — which supports talented LGBTQ youth with college scholarships. Find out more about their important work by clicking here, Or email Ryan here: ryantocallaghan@yahoo.com

If you’re looking for other ways to celebrate Pride in Connecticut, go to CT Visit.com for a complete list, including New Haven and New London Pride as well as details about Hartford Capital City Pride September 7th and 8th.

IMG_8381And learn more about this month’s special correspondent, Karleigh Merlot, by following her on Twitter or emailing her at charlenechardonnay@gmail.com

If Karleigh looks familiar, she was my videographer, editor, producer and brilliant collaborator on the episode last fall we taped in Provincetown, Mass. She’s incredibly talented!

35927127_10216638305890226_5101582628297900032_nFind out more about New York City’s Museum of Sex by going to their website or visiting them at 233 Fifth Avenue in Manhattan, at the corner of East 27th Street.

I heartily recommend the Magic Wand, by the way. It’s great for… massaging.

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By the way, we stayed at the Evelyn Hotel just down the block, and had a lovely time! It’s steps away from the end of the new parade route and around the corner from Madison Square Park. IMG_1546

Did you like the “RESIST” tee with the transgender colors — from the flag created by Monica Helms — which I wore during the NYC Pride March, and the recording of this episode? Click here for a link to get your own!

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I can also connect you with Nolan Custom Craft on Etsy, who produced the RiseUP With Dawn Ennis Pride 2018 stainless steel water bottle seen in this episode. I own another one, too, as you can see below!

Thanks to Emma for recording a greeting for one-time special correspondent and popular YouTuber Melody Maia Monet! You can watch Maia’s videos by clicking here.

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Thanks for watching and for reading lifeafterdawn.com Your comments on the show and my blog are welcome in the comments, and that’s also how you can let me know if you’d like to be our next special correspondent.

Next month: Another candidate in Connecticut’s embattled race for attorney general! Until then… Remember to RISE UP! 

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Here’s A Song to Sing to Trump Officials

Trump Cat

Sung to the tune of “Cat People,” by David Bowie.

TRUMP PEOPLE 

Seen your face on TV
Feels like it’s been a thousand days.
Worse than an STD
It’s been so long!
 
Do you say what you really believe?
What you’ve done to America’s so wrong


So hurtful and so mean 


Wish you would say, “so long!”
 
And you’ve been putting out fire with gasoline.
 
We’re sick of your little dance and song
Fool the bigots and wash their minds.
We’re done playing nice, sound the gong!
Don’t talk to us about being kind.
 
You’re so, so wrong!
 
As for Mike Pence, you must be blind
Lunatic could become prez in a heartbeat
Or perhaps as soon as it’s “Mueller Time”


Can’t believe he’ll be any better than you.
 
Wish you would say, “so long!”


C’mon! Just say “so long!”
 
And you’ve been putting out the fire with gasoline


Putting out the fire


With gasoline
 
(Drum solo)
 
See the kids in cages? You fiend!
Your heart’s three sizes too small, like the Grinch.
Damage you’re doing, so mean!
As you and your boss keep getting more rich?
 
See your boss’s tweets so petty


We can’t stand his thousands of lies


Wish you’d be gone already 


Just can’t believe what we’ve been through!

You’ve been lying so long.
You’ve been disgusting so long.
And you’ve been putting out the fire with gasoline


Putting out fire with gasoline!
 
Disgusting so long
Lying so long
Well, it’s been so long
President so long
He’s been putting out fire
Fingers not long
Well, it’s been so long
Hurting us so long
Been putting out fire
Say so long
It’s been so long
Say so long
Been putting out fire
Say so long
 
Say so long, so long, so long
Say so long, so long, so long
Been putting out fire
Say so long, so long, so long
Been putting out fire
Say so long, so long, so long

Thanks to Parker Malloy for the idea!

Law & Order

The news of late has been ripe with stories of bias, particularly against African Americans. From Starbucks to Yale, from a California AirBnB to a Nordstrom Rack store in Missouri, white Americans have been the perpetrators of racist stereotyping, unwarranted fearmongering and outrageous behavior. And to people of color, sadly, it’s nothing new. Just another day ending in Y for folks whose lives are marked by incidents of suspicion, wrongful arrest, illegal stop and seizure, unjust sentencing, prejudice and discrimination.

It’s an American tradition going back centuries: treat others unlike how you yourself would want to be treated; fear the stranger and show favor to those like you.

Who is there to speak out against injustice, and stand up for Law & Order (you know it’s not just a TV franchise, right)?

This month on RiseUP With Dawn Ennis, meet Clare Kindall, Democratic candidate for attorney general of Connecticut, and Gabrielle Sprierer, a trangender activist and public speaker from Long Island, New York.

Below the link, you’ll find helpful links aimed at giving you a chance to RiseUP.

To find out more about the president’s ban on transgender military and what’s being done to stop it, click here and here.

You can learn more about my guest, Assistant Attorney General Clare Kindall and her run for the top job, by going to this link. I’ve invited all the other candidates for attorney general in Connecticut to be my guest in future episodes and I’m looking forward to introducing them to you in the months ahead.

Register to vote in Connecticut by clicking here. If you live outside the state, here’s a link to check if you’re registered and there’s info about how to do so if you’re not. The League of Women Voters are your go-to resource for information about voting, no matter where you live. And women in Connecticut are encouraged to learn about running for office by going to EmergeCT’s website. 

Want to learn more about net neutrality? Click here. The current rules expire in June and there’s more information about that here.

Do you have a complaint about your utility bill, or another issue? Here’s the link to complain to CT’s current Attorney General George Jepsen.

Interested in politics? Click here to link to the Democratic Party in West Hartford, and the national party. Republicans in our town can click here. The national GOP is here.

To connect with this month’s special correspondent Gabrielle Spierer, hit her up with a friend request on Facebook. She’s spoken at the Keystone Conference and First Event convention, among other venues.

If you’d like to be my next special correspondent, leave a comment here or email me at dawnennis@gmail.com

As I write this I am preparing for major surgery on Tuesday, May 15, the revision surgery that I’ve fought my state Medicaid program to get for two years. I’ll be back in June with a new episode of RiseUP, and will try to blog about my experience in the weeks in between!

“Am I Next?”

Processed with VSCO with oak3 presetMy daughter and I took part in last month’s March For Our Lives on the grounds of Connecticut’s capitol. We left our “pussy hats” from the 2017 protest behind, but she did bring along a homemade sign, replete with handrawn blood-drips and the question, “Am I Next?”

There we met teachers, students, mothers and fathers and many, many little children among the thousands who marched and rallied. Also in attendance, this week’s guest on RiseUP With Dawn Ennis: Kevin Sullivan, a legend in Connecticut politics and currently the commissioner of revenue services.

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Yes, he’s the Tax Man. And in this episode, he has important advice for everyone still working on your taxes (the IRS extended its deadline until midnight tonight).

Sullivan is also the former mayor of my hometown, West Hartford, a former member of the town council, a former state senator and president of the state senate. And Commissioner Sullivan also served as Connecticut’s lieutenant governor. In addition to safeguarding the state’s revenue coffers, he also serves our town as a leader in the Democratic Party. With his help and sponsorship, I am honored to serve as an alternate representative for my district on the town council. That’s one way I’m rising up.

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Also this month, my special correspondent is a mom of six children in Alexandria, Virginia: Amanda Brewer, a military wife who never expected she’d become an advocate for transgender rights. That all changed when her daughter, came out as trans at age 11.

I profiled the Brewers as well as another military family they helped fight bureaucracy at the Pentagon.

Amanda bravely accepted my invitation to share how she became an activist for trans rights, and I’m so grateful to her for telling her story.

You’ll find helpful links and more information below the link to this month’s show.

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Thank you in advance for watching, liking, sharing, and subscribing!

You can support families like Amanda Brewer’s by supporting the American Military Partners Association, which is actively fighting both the Pentagon and the Trump administration on behalf of trans military troops and their families.

To find out more about the March For Our Lives movement, click here. 

If you’re interested in learning more about Commissioner Kevin Sullivan or the department of revenue services, click here. And you’ll find information about state tax refunds here.

The IRS website is here for federal tax filing information.

Click here to register to vote in Connecticut.  The League of Women Voters Education Fund has a website to learn about voting in other states. Click here to access that page.

Read about West Hartford’s Jonathan Harris and his bid to be Connecticut’s next governor here. 

To read about my decision to convert from Roman Catholicism to Judaism, click here. 

The story about the man who decided to stop dating me after learning I’m trans is here.

And my personal #MeToo story about getting groped by actor Jeffrey Tambor is here on lifeafterdawn.com

If you are interested in becoming a RiseUP special correspondent, please contact me via the comments section! All you need is a camera phone and a story to tell about how you’ve taken action in your community. No experience required!

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My Fingers Are Weeping

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My Fingers Are Weeping: A poem by Sophie Ennis

my palms are sweaty, i know.

and yes, it’s kind of hard to grow

when people tell me that i am gross,

and make fun of my anxiety.

 

but does anyone recognize the irony,

of telling me that i am faking,

when it’s difficult for me to hold the hand of the person i am dating.

 

my hands are thorns. i wish roses came with them.

i can’t hug, i can’t hold,

i can’t let anyone touch me when it is cold.

i feel the need to explain the constant personal thorns on my hands,

because personal is publicized when no one understands.

 

my fingers are weeping from the insults and names.

my thorns learned how to self sustain.

there are more every day. i don’t know how to stop them.

 

they keep coming and coming, someone please tell me how to stop them.

but then you put your hand in mine one day, and our fingers intertwined.

you were the first person to say that you didn’t mind.

the color red escaped from our hands. had my thorns made you bleed?

 

no.

 

you brought me a rose when i couldn’t make my own. please don’t ever leave,

or take your hand out of mine.

hold tightly, because for once, i wasn’t lying when i said i’m fine.

 

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Thank you, Soph. “I love I.”

I wish that whoever you are, wherever you go, no matter how sweaty your palms are, that you find someone who loves your thorns as well as your roses, someone who is always happy to hold your hand.

No matter what.

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RiseUP with Gov. Malloy and Sarah McBride

A new episode of my talk show RiseUP With Dawn Ennis is live on YouTube in advance of tonight’s premiere on WHC-TV at 9:30pm.

My guests are Gov. Dannel Malloy of Connecticut, and Sarah McBride of HRC, who is out with a stunning memoir, Tomorrow Will Be Different.

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Gov. Malloy talked with me one on one about his accomplishments over his two terms in office, responded to his critics and answered questions from viewers, one of which is: why don’t you just resign now? His answer? “Walk in my shoes” before he’ll consider that viewer’s advice. Malloy told another viewer inquiring about taxes, “Wake up!”

We’ll also look at the newest candidate to enter the competitive race to replace Malloy, former West Hartford mayor Jonathan Harris.

Also in this episode, Sarah McBride explains what motivated her to work in activism and told me what she hopes readers who aren’t LGBTQ will learn from her book, now on sale.

You’ll find links to help you learn more about the people and topics we cover in this episode by scrolling down below the video link! If you enjoy what you see, please like. share and subscribe:

If you’re looking to contact Gov. Dannel Malloy, here’s the link to send him (or, more accurately, his staff) an email. They are very responsive! And if you have a specific problem or issue you want the governor and his staff to address, click here to contact the Constituent Services Office.

Watch the governor’s final state of the state address here and read the transcript here. 

You can read up on Connecticut politics by clicking here for the Hartford Courant’s section devoted to political news coverage.

Find out more about Jonathan Harris’s campaign for governor of Connecticut by clicking here. 

Harris, of course, faces some stiff competition later this year in the state primary:

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This episode’s special correspondent is Sarah McBride, the national press secretary for Human Rights Campaign (HRC) and the first out transgender person to ever address a national political convention. Sarah is the author of Tomorrow Will Be Different, her memoir which the cover explains is about love, loss, and the fight for trans equality.

Read about Sarah and find out how you can get a copy of her book by clicking here

Sarah’s page at HRC can be found here. She’s on Twitter, and Instagram, too. And she’s written powerful stories at medium.com as well. Click here to read what else she’s written.

Click here to watch a short excerpt from Jennifer Finney Boylan’s powerful interview with Sarah at The Strand bookstore in New York City, on March 6th.

You can also order Sarah’s book on Amazon.com by clicking here. For information about Sarah’s book tour, you’ll find a list of cities and dates here. 

If you would like more information about Congregation Beth Israel in West Hartford, reform Judaism or about the celebration of Purim and other Jewish holidays, visit CBI’s new and improved website for everything you ever wanted to know, but didn’t know who to ask! And expect to hear more in upcoming episodes about CBI’s 175th anniversary celebration!

If you like what you see, please like, share and subscribe, to both WHC-TV’s YouTube channel and to my own, as well as to this blog. Thank you!

 

 

Stop Lying, Jeffrey Tambor

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Jeffrey Tambor (left) and Dawn Ennis, May 9, 2015 at the GLAAD Media Awards NYC. Photographer: Hannah Simpson

Although what I experienced pales in comparison to what other women endured… this week I finally broke my silence with a post on Facebook. It’s been a long time coming.

The news first broke last fall that award-winning actor Jeffrey Tambor was accused of inappropriate sexual behavior by my FB friends Van Barnes, his assistant on the TV show Transparent, and actress Trace Lysette.,who has appeared on that show among others.

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Trace Lysette (left) and Van Barnes

I was not among those who were stunned and surprised. Not just because this came amidst the #MeToo scandals rocking Hollywood and big business. Not just because I knew as a journalist that the accusations would need to be investigated before any action would be taken. But as a woman, I knew in my heart that there could be no mistake: the beloved, cherished and much-heralded actor who won Emmy awards, a Golden Globe, and more, had crossed the line.

Because Jeffrey Tambor had also fondled me.

He actually did it twice: Once at a star-studded gala at the Waldorf in New York City in May 2015, and a few months later at a Transparent publicity shoot in West Hollywood. I’ll share the details in a moment, but first let me address the bigger question: why didn’t I say anything? If not the first time, why not call him out the second time?

I admit, and I’m embarrassed to do so, that first time it did not even occur to me that I should. And when he touched me, even though this was in front of several other people in both instances, I remained silent, endured his touch, and just waited for it to be over.

I thought at the time, this is the shit that men do. I never said anything… because I thought this was what we did, as women. And thanks to Van, Trace, Tarana Burke, Ashley Judd, Rose McGowan, Alyssa Milano, and so many more women — and men like Anthony Rapp — I found the strength to detail my own #MeToo story here. No longer should any of us remain silent.

“Dawn Ennis!” shouted the actor with the distinct baritone voice, as he crossed the ballroom of the Waldorf Astoria the night of May 9, 2015. “There you are!” said Jeffrey Tambor, as he sidled up to me and took my hand. He was dressed in a men’s suit.

If my jaw hit the floor any harder, there would have been a crater. Here was one of Hollywood’s most well-known character actors, now the star of Amazon’s new streamed series… a straight, cisgender man who ‘friended’ me and several other transgender women on Facebook, presumably to be more “authentic” in his role of Maura Pfefferman… here was Jeffrey Tambor calling my name out in a crowd of celebrities and LGBT superstars.

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I was there at the invitation of my friend and mentor, Jennifer Finney Boylan, then a member of the GLAAD board of directors and a featured speaker at that night’s GLAAD Media Awards. Decked out in a voluptuous violet gown, I was a victim of a Sephora stylist’s really poor taste in brow pencil, But I managed to find the words just as Tambor’s other hand wrapped around my torso.

I could feel everyone’s eyes upon us.

“I cannot believe you recognize me from Facebook,” I told him. Perhaps all those tabloid headlines helped, too. But either way, I stood in surprise, and not just at the recognition, but at the arm that now found its way around my waist. “Oh, I’m a big fan of yours! Your stories, all you’ve been through. Let’s take a selfie!” Tambor said to me, my mind racing. What was happening?

He had found me in one of those rare moments when my iPhone was not in my hand, so a friend snapped our photo as his grip held me tight and close to his body. The cheeks of my face turned bright red as I felt my left buttcheek squeezed, in that moment before the flash of the cameraphone blinded us.

And… then he was gone. I looked around, saw several others following him through the ballroom, my friends smiling at me, happy at the recognition bestowed upon me by a big name celebrity, and I thought, there was nothing I could say about what just happened. If anyone saw it, nobody said anything. I guessed I should just chalk up another first-time experience, being the woman I am. This is what happens, trans or cisgender. I didn’t feel good about the objectification, the fondle or the forced intimacy of his body pressed against mine. I took it as a price I had to pay to be who I am.

Fast-forward to August, and to a soundstage in West Hollywood, where after many, many, many requests, the producers of Transparent invited me — the new news editor at The Advocate Magazine, and its first out transgender editor — to visit a gathering of all the stars.

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Photographer’s master sheet of talent from Amazon’s Transparent, August 2015

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The soundstage

They gathered for publicity portraits, and to be interviewed by me about the much anticipated second season. It was the kind of exclusive I had hoped for, chatting up the stars behind the scenes, getting to know them and how their characters were about to evolve.

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Although I only chatted briefly with Amy Landecker, Melora Hardin and literally bumped into Gaby Hoffman as I helped her wheel her baby stroller in the front door, Carrie Brownstein, Jay Duplass, Alexandra Billings and the incredible Judith Light spent about 15 to 20 minutes each, examining the work they were doing and how it relates to their LGBT audience, particularly transgender women like me. In addition,

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Carrie talked about how different this role was from her work on Portlandia; Jay and I laughed about his portrayal of a truly selfish and immature manchild, and the lessons to be learned from playing Josh. Judith and I discussed our love of Broadway, and fulfilling the part of mother figure even off-camera, my worries for my then-ailing wife. And Alexandra, who is trans, shared how being misgendered and being mistreated by cisgender men empowered her instead of debilitating her, and challenged her to persevere.

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Dawn Ennis (left) and Judith Light

That is when I got word that it was time to leave, and that I would not be seeing Mr. Tambor.

“Okay,” I said. “We’ve already met,” and besides, I had more than enough material for my readers.  I figured what Alexandra and Melora had to say about their characters and their own authentic identities would be of more interest than yet another interview with the star of the show, which had pretty much been done to death.

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Alexandra Billings (left) and Dawn Ennis

I was actually leaving the soundstage, when who should come around the bend but Tambor himself, leading an entourage of hair and makeup people. The biggest difference between May and August was he was wearing his wig, fake nails, makeup and a muumuu instead of the fancy man’s suit I’d seen him in before.

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Jeffrey Tambor as Maura on Amazon’s Transparent

Van, his “Girl Friday,” had exchanged emails with me, but I really didn’t get much of a chance to talk with her on this busy day.

Yet once again, without me needing to be introduced or get his attention, her boss called out my name. “Dawn Ennis!” he bellowed.

I’m someone who isn’t starstruck meeting leaders and presidents, nor actors and celebrities of all kinds, since I myself was a child actor and model beginning at the age of four. But there was no denying I was again flattered by the fact that Tambor acted as if he knew me — and acted is probably the most important word in that sentence. Given that he grabbed my butt at the GLAAD Awards, maybe he felt he did know me, in his own way.

The memory was fresh, so when he walked up to me, I used both hands to grasp his. And that worked, for a moment.

“Good to see you again, Jeffrey. Thank you for what you do to represent girls like me,” I told him, sincerely. He let go of my hands, clasped my face in both hands, and then used them to firmly grasp my shoulders and pull me in for a tighter than expected hug.

“No, thank you!” Tambor replied, effusively. “Thank you, for all that it is that you do. Thank you. It’s for you and for everyone like you that I do this,” he said.

All the stars had given me a hug of one kind or another. All were meeting me for the first time. Not Tambor. And I thought I was prepared.

As I started to pull my body back, away from his embrace, I could not help but feel his long arms slide down from my shoulders… and his hands find their way straight to my rear end.

And… squeeze.

“Okay, well, go break a leg,” I muttered as I abruptly took a step back. Not sure if anyone noticed the spring in my step from that double grab… but once again, as inappropriate as it was, I did not exclaim or confront him or ask if anyone saw what he did. If they did, I suspect it probably wouldn’t have been news to anyone who worked closely with him. Just another day, another buttocks.

I thanked my hosts and hightailed it off the soundstage, walking my New York walk of big fast strides to get to the safe harbor of my car.

I told one person, and only one person, and that was my wife, before she died. We had separated since my transition two years earlier, and stayed separated after I resumed my transition, She was intent on eventually divorcing me, and in spite of everything, I still loved her… but we had found a way forward as friends.

Hearing me tell her how a famous actor had treated me like any other woman surely couldn’t have been easy, and neither was hearing her tell me what so many cisgender women say when this kind of thing happens to trans women (and if I’m not being clear, we absolutely HATE hearing this):

“Welcome to womanhood.”

Except in my case, I didn’t feel particularly welcome. Being told this makes most trans women I know feel “othered,” as if we are mere pledges to the sorority and not yet really women. Now, the truth is, I had certainly pinched my wife’s butt more than once, but I was living as a male and we were married almost 20 years. I could not get my mind around the idea that a man felt comfortable groping a woman in that way, or worse.

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And then I read Van’s post. And Trace’s account. And all the other women whose stories had preceded theirs and followed them, especially Anthony Rapp’s. Eventually, I worked up the courage to tell my own #MeToo story of when I was sexually abused as a teen model, which I wrote about for The Huffington Post. 

But even then, I resisted revealing these particular events. Truth is, they were still too fresh, and the backlash against the movement was virulent. I’ve had more than my fair share of tabloid attention in the last five years, and I’m not seeking any more. I do this now because I can no longer deny it happened, and happened again, and because Jeffrey Tambor continues to deny the accusations against him, insisting he was treated unfairly and blames a “toxic politicized atmosphere.”

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No, sir: as Van and Trace have said more eloquently than I ever can, you have no one to blame but yourself. I consider myself lucky to have escaped your clutches twice with minimal scarring. And I’ve told you so.

All this just makes me wonder who else has not yet told their Jeffrey Tambor story.

I wish it had not taken me so long. I wish this was something no woman ever had to do. But it is in the telling that we heal, we grow, and we show that we will not be silenced. Never again.

I send my eternal praise and gratitude to Van Barnes and Trace Lysette and Anthony Rapp for inspiring me with their bravery and courage. As Van said, may it be easier for the next one.

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Dawn Ennis is a journalist, a blogger at lifeafterdawn.comHuffPost and Medium, and the host of a talk show on YouTube: “RiseUP With Dawn Ennis.” 

She got her start in New York City working behind the scenes at CNN. Ennis wrote and produced for CBS, NBC, and ABC News, and has also worked as a manager at TV stations across the country. 

Ennis was America’s first transgender journalist in a TV network newsroom when she came out 4 and a half years ago, and started a new career as an online journalist and independent video producer.

She is a widow who does the job of mom for three children who call her “Dad.” They reside in Connecticut with their cat, Faith. 

The Naked Truth Is…

Donald Trump Is A Racist. Donald Trump Is A Racist. Donald Trump Is A Racist.

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I hear you asking: Why did I bare everything to send you this message?

Well, I recorded this without much forethought after watching a video by the brilliant columnist for The New York Times, Charles M. Blow.

On the morning of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Day, he spoke on Twitter about people who refuse to call out racism when they see it. This is not to say Mr. Blow inspired me to take my clothes off! Yes, he’s gorgeous, but, no, he didn’t.

I chose to do this for one simple reason, and it’s to send a message that is both succinct and visually clear, without any distraction:

Donald Trump is a racist.

If you already know the tale of The Emperor’s New Clothes, then let’s skip right to the moral of the story: all it takes to call out a lie, to expose a fraud, and to take down a king, is for one honest individual with no preconceptions to speak out.

Let’s stop pretending we don’t know exactly what the president is, why his message resonates so strongly with some Americans, and how he gets away with it.

It is because there are too few people willing to risk everything to call him out. With this, I leave no doubt where I stand, and make no presumptions about the potential fallout. You see me here totally unguarded. I am giving you my plain, honest and unvarnished perspective.

Donald Trump is a racist.

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Now, even with all the much-needed efforts to empower women lately, and not treat us as sex objects serving only to please men, there are unfortunately some folks who will only focus on the fact my video reveals part of a woman’s nude body, even if it is just for ten seconds. So, I repeat myself in the video.

Hey! Eyes up here! 

Did you miss what I said? Donald Trump is a racist. I am being as transparent as I can here.

That’s a pun, of course.

IMG_8110Apologies if the pendant is also a distraction; I wear it only because I am rarely seen without it. This was a gift from a longtime friend, and its symbols will be familiar to many: male and female, intertwined. It signifies I am transgender, and my very existence and that of women like me is threatened each and every day because of who we are.

After an impossibly horrible year, the first month of 2018 is only at the midway point, and already two trans women have been murdered: one in Southern California and another in New England. I won’t even try to compare the suffering of our tiny community to that of the generations of victims of rampant institutional and individual racism. But we can say that for each instance of these outrageous kinds of human behavior, it is the fear of something different, something other, that fuels hate, violence and oppression. And I will not be silent as it continues.

I may not do more than make a spectacle of myself in sharing this video, and I am willing to accept this risk.

Or, perhaps I will show that there is no justification for accommodation, no reason to cloak the obvious fact that we have as our elected leader of these United States a man who is a proven, unrepenting, lying, undeniable racist.

That’s the naked truth.

Oh, and please note: I usually wear pajamas to bed.

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Dawn Ennis is a journalist, a blogger at lifeafterdawn.comHuffPost and Medium, and the host of a talk show on YouTube: “RiseUP With Dawn Ennis.” 

She got her start in New York City working behind the scenes at CNN. Ennis wrote and produced for CBS, NBC, and ABC News, and has also worked as a manager at TV stations across the country. 

Ennis was America’s first transgender journalist in a TV network newsroom when she came out 4 and a half years ago, and started a new career as an online journalist and independent video producer.

She is a widow who does the job of mom for three children who call her “Dad.” They reside in Connecticut with their cat, Faith. 

A Fair Amount of Transgender Awareness

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Tonight I will speak of death, and mourn those who lost their lives to hate in 2017. At this annual gathering in Hartford, not far from my home, we will read the names of each transgender individual killed because of who they were, and light a candle in their memory, an action that will be repeated around the world.

But as the transgender community and our allies take time to honor those taken from us on this Transgender Day of Remembrance (more about this below), I am proud to share with you a very special episode of RiseUP With Dawn Ennis which is timed to coincide with this solemn occasion as well as #TransAwarenessWeek. Scroll down for the link to the YouTube video.

This month’s episode is special for a number of reasons.

First, we shot it entirely on location in the beautiful Cape Cod community of Provincetown, Massachusetts.

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We traveled there for last month’s Fantasia Fair, now in its 43rd year.

Fantasia-FairThe weeklong event celebrated gender diversity feature speakers, singers, comedians, fashion shows and provided attendees a chance to make new friends, to shop and be social, and to be the genuine person some people feel they cannot be at home, at work, and/or with their family. And some people bring their spouses so they can show them this side of themselves. You can get answers to the frequently asked questions about the fair by clicking here. 

Among the speakers this year featured in our program is Mara Keisling, the founder and executive director of the National Center for Transgender Equality (NCTE) in Washington, D.C.

IMG_8381For the first time in the eight months of doing this show, I worked with a collaborator for this episode: Chardonnay Merlot served as videographer, editor, interviewee, as well as interviewer in my absence, once I left P-Town to attend to my children. Last year, the kiddos accompanied me, but given the timing I opted to run up and back from CT.

My many thanks to Chardonnay for doing such great work, and my sincere congrats on the fair scholarship she received to perform the videography duties at which she excels.

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She’s the subject of a book, Trans/Active, which you can buy by clicking here

Among her many accomplishments as a writer and activist, Gwen founded the Transgender Day of Remembrance.

IMG_8902IMG_8359According to Gwen’s Facebook post, TDoR’s mission statement is:

“Transgender Day of Remembrance (TDoR) is a vehicle for the Gender Spectrum to unify against the violence, oppressive and discriminatory behavior against Transgender, Intersex, Gender Non-Conforming and Non-Binary, Gender Fluid, Two Spirit people and unconventional Gender Spectrum people. This event is a vehicle for all to provide education and awareness. We use this event to connect to this community to help them live authentic and free from violence, addressing oppressive disparities within the health care field, HIV infection and prevention, financial independence and economic prosperity, homelessness, youth, suicide, policy reform, violence and other aspects in life that obstruct authentic living.”

You can read about the other Virginia Prince Pioneer Award winner, Martine Rothblatt, in my one-on-one exclusive interview and video, which I produced for The Advocate earlier this year, by clicking here. 

IMG_8382.jpgAnd be sure to not miss my interview with Lorelei Erisis, standup comic, improv, actor, activist and extrovert who is among the loveliest and kindest human beings I know. [Lorelei, please remember to send the check to my home, not the TV station].

Don’t believe me? As she suggests, just Google her name and you’ll see for yourself.

You can find out more about Lorelei’s gig with the world famous standup comic Tammy Twotone by following Tammy’s Twitter page.

As promised, here’s the link to this month’s episode on YouTube. You can also check it out at 9pm on WHC-TV Channel 5 beginning Wednesday, November 22nd. WHC-TV is a community public access station available only in West Hartford, Connecticut. Scroll down for more links and information!

IMG_8366The list of speakers at this year’s Fantasia Fair was greater than we could show in a single episode, including retired fire captain and GLAAD board member Lana Moore, Lambda Legal’s transgender rights project director M. Dru Levasseur, transgender youth advocate and author Tony Ferraiolo, activist Monica Perez, Nick Adams of GLAAD, and so many more!

During our time in P-Town, we spoke to so many folks, trans men as well as women, spouses, allies and locals who welcomed the attendees with open arms. Thank you to everyone who took a moment to share their stories!

One of them was Heather Leigh, who runs a support group that’s more like a party in New Haven, Connecticut.

It’s called Diva Social and it’s billed as a monthly, friendly, safe and welcoming event for the transgender, crossdressing and queer segments of the LGBTQ community. Contact Heather for more information about the next event in mid-December by clicking here. 

What’s the difference between a trans woman and a crossdresser? There are two famous responses, each aimed at eliciting laughter: the first is that a crossdresser arrives home from work and cannot wait to put on a bra… and a trans woman cannot wait to take hers off. The second answer to the question, “what’s the difference between a crossdresser and a trans woman,” is… about three years.

For a more serious answer, check out GLAAD’s excellent reference guide to understanding the difference, and why it’s important to know the difference:

“While anyone may wear clothes associated with a different sex, the term cross-dresser is typically used to refer to men who occasionally wear clothes, makeup, and accessories culturally associated with women. Those men typically identify as heterosexual. This activity is a form of gender expression and not done for entertainment purposes. Cross-dressers do not wish to permanently change their sex or live full-time as women. Replaces the term ‘transvestite’.”

provincetown-27596358If you’re interested in a great time in Provincetown, consider staying, dining or booking your next event at the Crown and Anchor, where many of the fair events were held, and The Boatslip Resort where many of my friends stayed; even without being their guest, I myself received a warm welcome and generous help from the staff.

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As for me, I had a fantastic room right on the water at Dyer’s Beach House and Motel by the Sea.

Come nightfall, don’t miss a chance to enjoy cocktails, food and a piano bar at Tin Pan Alley, featuring the fabulous Jon Richardson. Follow him on Facebook and Instagram. 

mon night sky cleanOur thanks to the fine folks at the Pilgrim Monument for welcoming the RiseUP team and all the fairgoers and providing us with an incredible space to conduct some of our interviews.

The historic landmark tower and museum is a real treat for all ages, staffed by knowledgeable guides, featuring fascinating exhibits and an amazing view from atop the tower that is well worth the hike!

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Or so Chardonnay told me!

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Our many thanks to Jamie Dailey, Karen Jandro, Temperance DufWitt and the entire FanFair team. For more information about Fantasia Fair, check out the contact page or send an email to info@fantasiafair.org

That’s all for this month. I’ll be back next month with a new episode of RiseUp and I certainly hope to update the blog well before then! Send me your comments here or via Facebook, Instagram or Twitter @riseupwithdawn

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Anthony Rapp, Wilson Cruz on ‘Star Trek: Discovery’ Coupledom

The sci-fi franchise goes where no gays have gone before.

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This is in part a repost of my article first published on the LGBT silo of nbcnews.com on October 13, 2017.

This blogpost includes original content not included with the article on NBC Out, and here appears in bold. 

The fact that for the first time in the 51-year history of “Star Trek,” out gay actors are playing gay characters in love, is not something CBS, its stars or its creators are either hiding or promoting. But it is something they’re celebrating.

“I couldn’t be more proud to be a part of ‘Star Trek’ TV’s first gay couple,” actor Anthony Rapp of “Rent” fame told NBC News. “I can’t say how much that means to me personally as a fan of the series and as a member of the LGBT community.”

Rapp plays the prickly, grumpy genius anastromycologist Lt. Paul Stamets, which basically means he’s the foremost expert on fungus. And fungus gets far more screen-time than his same-sex relationship on the CBS All Access streaming show, which is just fine with Rapp.

“I’m proud of the fact that none of that really matters in the show,” Rapp said, describing the portrayal of their relationship as “alive, truthful and human.”

IMG_8186His on-screen partner and costar, Wilson Cruz, who plays Dr. Hugh Culber, called Rapp his “space boo” on stage at New York Comic Con. They’ve been friends since they starred together on Broadway two decades ago. “We’ve worked together for 20 years, so it was so easy to create this together, because we have so much back history.”

Cruz won applause during the evening event at the Paley Center for Media in midtown Manhattan, when he spoke up for transgender rights, called out violence based on gender identity and called for more LGBTQ representation in entertainment. “These stories we tell are really important, so that people understand who we are, what our lives are like, and perhaps they will understand us and not hate us.”

Cruz was quick to denounce the actions of the Trump administration to rollback LGBT rights and attempts to erase protections against discrimination.

“I’m livid,” Cruz told me before Saturday night’s panel at the Paley Center. “We have a president who cares very little for LGBT people,” he said. “His words mean nothing and his actions mean everything, and he’s saying everything he really believes in his actions.”

“It saddens me that this continues to be the case,” Rapp told me, saying despite the government’s actions, he remains encouraged. “The backlash that comes is only possible because of the progress. So it is in direct opposition to progress. It’s like the last gasp.”

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The “Star Trek” franchise, said actor Jason Isaacs, is inclusive of “all genders, all sexualities, all flavors, not just of humans, but in our show of [other] species as well. The point being, things we are told should separate us, actually unite us.”

“The original series was borne out of troubled times, “ Isaacs continued, ”the birth of the civil rights movement and feminism, and I think there’s never been a time where a story like this, with a positive view of the future — even though we’re at war in the show — has been more necessary, than when division is being sown by some really toxic elements.”

President Trump and his Justice Department’s newly announced policies threatening LGBT rights, and the administration’s continued efforts to curtail reproductive rights and threats to immigrants, were as talked about on the red carpet as were the Discovery’s groundbreaking spore drive, Vulcans and Klingons.

IMG_8187“Star Trek: Discovery” Executive Producer Akiva Goldsman said the franchise has “always been about inclusion.”

“We’re not value-neutral when it comes to the issues of people being isolated, separated, not understood, ostracized,” Goldsman explained.

Citing proof of the show’s inclusivity, Alex Kurtzman, also an executive producer on the series, said the team behind the scenes is an even mix of men and women. He also revealed the show’s producers decided a refocus was necessary following President Trump’s unexpected election victory. That included a not-accidental nod to Trump’s “Make America Great Again” slogan, by giving the show’s antagonists, the Klingons, a new rallying cry: “Remain Klingon.”

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Cruz was swift to point out that from sexual harassment of women to racial inclusion, Hollywood has a lot more work to do, especially from his perspective as an industry trailblazer. He was the first out Latino actor on network television, playing the first openly gay teenager on TV: the character of Rickie Vasquez on “My So-Called Life” in the mid-1990s. Times have changed, Cruz said.

“But the fact of the matter is,” he told fans, “most of the LGBTQ characters now on TV are still gay white men. The work that needs to be done now is to diversify the picture of LGBTQ people, so that people can see that we come from all races, different genders, we have trans people.” Cruz’s character on the U.S.S. Discovery is only the second regular “Star Trek” character of Latinix heritage, following the half-Klingon, half-human B’elanna Torres played by Rosario Dawson on “Star Trek: Voyager.”

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As gay actors, Cruz and Rapp have tremendous allies both on the screen and in front of it, largely thanks to social media. “Star Trek: Discovery” is the first installment of the franchise since the creation of Twitter and Facebook.

“The ‘Trek’ community is so profoundly engaged,” Rapp said. “We’re all in this together. Yes, I’m the one in the show, and you’re the one consuming the show. But we all care about it, and we get to share in that.”

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Although CBS boasts the show has boosted subscriptions to its streaming service, a lot of the online chatter is centered on criticism of the network’s decision to hide it behind a paywall. Isaacs, who plays Discovery’s sexy, mysterious and mercurial Captain Gabriel Lorca, told Comic Con fans that controversy is not something the cast wants to address, and directed the question to “the other end of the panel.”

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Executive producer Kurtzman took the bull by the horns, and didn’t mince words. He told fans paid content is where television is going, following in the footsteps of Netflix, Hulu, now Disney, and of course the pay TV granddaddy, HBO.

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Another topic of internet speculation concerns Mary Wiseman’s character, Cadet Sylvia Tilly. Is she more than just a talkative space rookie, perhaps someone on the autism spectrum?

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“In terms of the script, no one’s put a label on it,” Wiseman told NBC. “I think the idea that someone would see Tilly and recognize part of themselves in that performance, or that they would feel represented, is deeply moving to me, and gratifying.”

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Series star, the stunning Sonequa Martin-Green who rose to fame in The Walking Dead, told us her favorite part of playing mutineer Michael Burnham is her character’s desire to better understand other people.

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“I’m on a journey of self-discovery and I have an issue of arrested development because of what I’ve gone through,” she said, alluding to the challenges no woman in the franchise’s history has ever tackled: Burnham is an orphan raised on Vulcan as an adopted member of Spock’s family. Her actions set in motion the war between the Federation and the Klingons.

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Speaking of Klingons, Mary Chieffo plays the imposing L’Rell, a character she describes as more than just intimidating; the six-foot-tall beauty revealed L’Rell has a quality Star Trek fans have never before seen in a Klingon: vulnerability.

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“I really hope,” she said, “whether it be LGBTQ, or anyone who sees themselves as ‘other,’ is able to relate to the Klingons, to L’Rell. I think there’s a lot there that I relate to, as someone who’s never felt quite in the vein of what other people wanted me to be.”

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Just as Rapp and Cruz hope to convey their humanity in their performances, Chieffo said she, Martin-Green and Wiseman aim to be strong female role models for girls.

“You don’t have to be fully-armored,” she said, “to be badass.”

 

 

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Thanks to CBS, startrek.com and justjared.com for the photos appearing here. 

Special thanks to New York Comic Con and the Paley Center for Media for welcoming me to cover these two events for my readers here and at NBC News! 

“I Am A Leaf On The Wind…”

IMG_7720 (1)“…Watch how I soar!”

I love that line.

“I am a leaf on the wind. Watch how I soar,” is a quote from Serenitythe 2009 film based on the TV series, Firefly. And I drew great inspiration from it this month as I prepared to record the latest episode of my talk show.

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For those who are unfamiliar, the movie reunited the cast of Joss Whedon’s much-beloved but short-lived Fox scifi western, which ran for only 14 episodes in 2002.

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Hoban “Wash” Washburne was the pilot of the Firefly-class spaceship, Serenity. I found a post by blogger MyGeekWisdom that deciphered the meaning of Washburne’s inspiring words, as he summoned the courage to fly against seemingly impossible odds.

“It’s incredibly easy to psyche ourselves out when under pressure. It’s easy to talk ourselves out of doing, of even attempting to perform complicated tasks. In order to actually do them, confidence is key. We have to believe in ourselves whenever we do anything. Whether it be relatively mundane activities or extremely complex processes, we have to believe in ourselves that we can actually do it.”

And this month on RiseUP With Dawn Ennis, I summoned my courage to do something I’d never before attempted: I flew solo, recording an entire 30-minute show without a guest, without a script, covering the tragic news of the past week and addressing some of the most challenging times of my life. It’s a packed half-hour, and I relished the challenge.

Scroll down, and you’ll find all the links I mentioned in this episode, as well as links to some prior blogposts, addressing important issues raised in our program this month. Let me know your thoughts in the comments, including criticism if you feel it’s warranted. I went out on a limb this time, and I’m more than willing to learn from my mistakes.

It’s painful, but I’ve learned more from those, than from my successes. Here’s the show:

 

And now, the links, along with other helpful information:

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To help victims of Hurricane Harvey, click here, and click here to help victims of Hurricane Irma. Those links will connect you with Public Good, which will direct you to vetted charities that are IRS-verified nonprofit organizations. You can donate money, time and show your support online.

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Blood donation agencies are urging people living outside of Texas, Louisiana, Florida and Georgia to visit their local blood center and donate blood as soon as possible. All blood types are needed, but there is an urgent need for platelet donations, as well as O negative blood.

21storm3-superJumboThe Hispanic Federation is organizing support for the victims in Puerto Rico online at its Unidos portal, where 100% of your gift goes to the Puerto Rico Hurricane Relief Fund.

Click here to make an online donation. And here are several other ways you can help:

Donate Via Text – Compose a new text message for number 41444. Type UNIDOS (space) YOUR AMOUNT (space) and YOUR NAME. (For example: Unidos 100 John Doe) Then press “send” and click on the link to complete your donation.

Donate In Person – Visit any Popular Community Bank branch. Account name: Hurricane Relief Effort. Checking account number: 6810893500.

Donate By Check – Make your check payable to: Hispanic Federation, in the memo line, write Hurricane Relief Fund and mail to: Unidos Disaster Relief Fund, c/o Hispanic Federation, 55 Exchange Place, 5th Floor, New York, NY 10005

Donate Goods and Your Time – You can also support the Puerto Rican relief efforts by donating essential goods and volunteer through efforts coordinated by the New York City and State governments:

  • New York City Mayor Bill de Blasio has launched an effort to collect critically-needed items, such as diapers, baby food, and first aid supplies. To find locations, click here.
  • New York Governor Andrew Cuomo has also launched the Empire State Relief and Recovery Effort for Puerto Rico to collect donations and volunteer. To find locations, click here.

170926081134-01-hurricane-maria-puerto-rico-0924-super-169Nearly 85 percent of the island is still without power, which means millions of people remain without electricity weeks after the storm, says José H. Román Morales, president of Puerto Rico’s Energy Commission, which regulates the island’s electric power authority. And clean water remains a precious commodity, available to only one-third of the island; another factor that has doctors and health experts fearful of an epidemic outbreak spread by mosquitos.

It would be nice if I could share with you FEMA data on the situation, but as the Washington Post reported, the government has taken that information off its website. 

Public Good also provides a portal if you want to help victims of the latest earthquake to strike Mexico. Click here for more information and to donate money.

Mandalay-Bay-shooter.jpgThe victims of the massacre in Las Vegas will benefit from a GoFundMe account set up by Steve Sisolak, Chair of the Clark County Commission, to raise money for those shot and their families. In the first three days, it raised more than $9 million and as this is published the victims fund stands five million dollars short of its goal. Click here for more information and to donate.

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I’ve invited you to tweet your solution to the epidemic of gun violence in the U.S. But before you do, read this compelling article from Forbes — by a Republican — titled Ten Lies That Distort the Gun Control Debate.

Then tweet me @riseupwithdawn.

160916164535-05-nfl-players-protest-super-169As for the National Anthem protests, there are new developments: the NFL reportedly changed the rulebook, now requiring all players to be on the field and standing for the Star Spangled Banner. Team owners plan to meet to discuss this and an empty threat from President Trump to take away tax breaks to the NFL… which the league already gave up in 2015.

Interestingly, the NAACP called a pledge by Dallas Cowboys owner Jerry Jones, to bench players who take a knee during the national anthem, “a public commitment by an NFL owner to violate his players’ Constitutional right to free speech.” A prominent Texas politician of color, Dallas County Commissioner John Wiley Price, went a step further in denouncing Jones, calling his order to players an ultimatum “that says, ‘Slaves, obey your master.'”

A different view on this issue comes from Michael Caputo, a longtime Republican who served as a senior adviser to President Trump’s 2016 campaign and the presidential campaigns of Ronald Reagan, Jack Kemp and George H.W. Bush. I hope you’ll consider his perspective, in support of his beloved Buffalo Bills and his fellow veterans and their families, which you can read via CNN by clicking here.

As you may have noticed, I heard from a number of guys named “John.” Let me know your thoughts by tweeting me @riseupwithdawn.

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I talked a little about detransition in this episode, and my personal experience. My good friend Brynn Tannehill wrote one of the most forceful arguments to attack the myths surrounding this controversial topic a year after my experience, and it holds up well. Click here to read the article in HuffPost, and here to find more of Brynn’s amazing writing.

And you can read more about my personal experience here on lifefterdawn, in this blogpost from last year.

If you have questions about trans people, there are three excellent resources to consider. Click here for a quick, handy guide from Human Rights Campaign (HRC) and click here for an in-depth Q&A from the National Center for Transgender Equality (NCTE). GLAAD put together a list of FAQs as well, which you’ll find here.

What does gender confirmation surgery involve? Click here to read WebMD’s very simple explanation about the various operations that some transgender people undergo as part of their transition. About one-third of transgender Americans do have GCS, but most never take this step; it is fraught with potential complications, it’s expensive if your insurance doesn’t cover it, or your provider won’t accept your insurance, and the surgery requires an intense amount of recovery time and aftercare. In my personal opinion, all that is worth it, but I respect those who either choose to live without it or cannot have it for financial, health or other personal reasons. As for the corrective work I’m looking forward to having done, that’s nobody’s business but mine.

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To find out more about WPATH, the World Professional Association for Transgender Health, click here for that organization’s website. You can click here to read about the Standards of Care every respected surgeon and health care professional is expected to follow, and you can find out if your provider is a member by clicking here.

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Why is it important that your surgeon be a member of WPATH? Let’s take a more mundane example than what some consider the most important operation of their life.

Let’s say your car desperately needs new brakes. Brakes make the difference between you and your loved ones traveling at a high rate of speed, and all of you crashing into something at a high rate of speed. Bobby’s Brakes wants $900 to replace yours, and that’s more than you have. So, you approach Mike the Mechanic on his lunch break, and slip him $450 cash to do it after work. After all, Mike knows how to install brakes, and for him, it’s quick, easy money.

But what happens if Mike makes a mistake? Or if he cuts corners to get home in time to watch the latest streaming episode of Star Trek: Discovery? Mike doesn’t give you a warranty, there is no money-back guarantee, no nothing. So, instead, you shell out the $900 for peace of mind, knowing Bobby stands behind every set of brakes he installs.

Car SurgeonIf something goes wrong, there are consumer resources you can use to make sure Bobby fixes it. Mike, meanwhile, took your $450 in cash and is on his way to the casino.

And who would want to cut corners on the surgery that’s going to change their life? My advice: choose wisely, and don’t ever accept less than the best for your health care needs.

Click here for the official link to the website of Dr. Stanton Honig of Yale New Haven Hospital, the urologist who is, at the moment, the only surgeon Connecticut’s state-run health care system has authorized to perform surgeries on transgender patients. Be sure to read the reviews his patients left on RateMDs.com, Vitals.com, and Healthgrades.com

Or, if you’re interested in my personal opinion: don’t bother.

You can find links to hundreds of other qualified surgeons here. A warning: this list contains doctors I would never, ever recommend, not even to my worst enemy. As in all things, do your homework, ask around. And avoid any doctor who offers a surgical consultation over the phone. I mean, really? Again, would you expect your mechanic to accurately diagnose what your car needs over the phone, sight unseen? No, you would not.

You can read an article I wrote about the potential complications that can arise during gender confirmation surgery, which is also known as sex reassignment surgery, by clicking here. 

If you’re looking for more information about your right to health care, click here.

The U.S. Department of Health and Human Services has gutted healthcare.gov since the new administration took office, but you can see what’s left by clicking here. And HRC has an online resource about health care protections for LGBT folks that you can visit by clicking here.

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How about those melons? This photo and a few others are from a promotional shoot for Mount Sinai Hospital in New York City, to show off their center for transgender patients. The shoot was in March, when I was a redhead, before my recent breast surgery, and dozens of pounds ago.

If you find yourself the victim of bullying online, don’t allow anyone to victimize you that way. Report them, block them, or send them a strong message if you feel you can resolve whatever issue stands between you. But don’t allow anyone to treat you as “less than.” You have every right to not be bothered. Sometimes, switching off, logging out, walking away is the best solution rather than engaging.

sd-2017-poster-thumbRemember: what a bully wants most of all, whether it’s online or face to face, is to see you hurting. I’ve learned that “hurt people hurt people,” and the best way to stop a bully with their own issues is to not give them any ammunition or fuel to continue their assault on you. I know it stings. But resist fighting a fool, lest anyone not be able to tell the difference. In the meantime, click here for resources to combat bullying from the fine folks at GLAAD.

Spirit Day on October 19th is a great opportunity to show you’re willing to stand up against bullying, by wearing purple and spreading the message on social media. For details, click here.

You can read the latest on Kylie Perez, the 14-year-old trans girl assaulted in her New Jersey school here.

The mom of Missouri trans teen Ally Steinfeld spoke out following the gruesome murder of her 17-year-old daughter. Click here for that story, and read why Missouri law prevents prosecutors from pursuing hate crime charges by clicking here.

You can read more about the gender non-conforming student from Illinois who took his life, Elijah DePue, by reading his obituary here.

And if you wish, you can reach out to his mom and to his dad to send your thoughts through Facebook. Lacy DePue is here, Zachary DePue is here.

I’ve written here about the two times I tried to take my life. I called that post “The Choice” because I faced a decision that appeared to leave me only one option: to die. Thankfully, other options presented themselves, namely, to live. My children and I are so happy that’s how it worked out.

I invite you to read about that in greater detail by clicking here.

Find out more about my BFF Maia Monet, who was there for me when I needed her most, by visiting her YouTube channel. Like, share and subscribe by clicking here! And learn what a gift it is to read the works of my dear friend and mentor, Jennifer Finney Boylan, by visiting her website, which you’ll find here. I’m who I am today, and alive, thanks to these women, and because of the love of my children.

If you are a trans or gender-nonconforming person considering suicide, Trans Lifeline can be reached at 1-877-565-8860. In Canada, dial 1-877-330-6366Click here for other information about this organization, and click here to make a donation.

LGBT youth (ages 24 and younger) can reach the Trevor Project Lifeline at 1-866-488-7386. Don’t feel like calling? The Trevor Project also offers online chat and text. Find out more by clicking here. You can help save lives by clicking here to donate.

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 is available 24 hours a day to people of all ages and identities. The Nacional de Prevención del Suicidio es 1-888-628-9454. A line is also set up for the deaf and hard of hearing at 1-800-799-4889. Veterans can call 1-800-273-8255 to speak to someone who understands their particular needs. And for those dealing with the aftermath of any disaster, call 1-800-985-5990.

If you’re still not confident any of these fine organizations can help you, reach out to me. I’ve been there, and I’ll do my best to guide you. Email me at dawn@dawnennis.com or in the comments below, or send me a tweet at @riseupwithdawn.

img_8110.jpgPlease note: I’m sorry, but I do not accept unsolicited phone calls, or video calls via Facebook, FaceTime or any other means. Thanks in advance for respecting my privacy. 

Thank you so much for reading my blog and for watching the latest episode of RiseUP. Leave me a comment here or on Facebook or on Twitter. And in just a few weeks, I’ll be back with a new episode recorded on location in Provincetown, Mass. at the annual Fantasia Fair. Until then, remember the words of Bruce Springsteen: “C’mon, Rise Up!”